Anxiety And Depression - Living In A Dungeon...

In this video I give you a BRIEF description and a brief VISUAL of my very depressing, miserable living situation. Regardless of the way you've seen me in pictures and in my other videos THIS what I'm actually currently living in behind the scenes. Again I would like to stress that this BRIEF video doesn't even completely show why I am depressed. There are other reasons too. This is just one of the biggest ones. I may have even forgot to mention some things in this video. If I have, then I will mention them in later videos.

For those of you who don't know. Here is a short description of who I am :

My name is Caleb and I am 20 years old. My interest are dancing, music, video games, going out, and chilling with friends(when I have them). I have a huge passion for dancing and want to be a choreographer. I have severe anxiety and have difficulty going out of the house. I do go out... however, it is very hard for me to and it is very uncomfortable most of the time. The only way I can really obtain any comfort is through the medication I take(Which I'm starting to develop an addiction to by the way. Isn't that just great?) Klonopin. I also have to have somebody with me most of the time. I get very afraid to go out alone. The places I have the most difficulty going are places that are BIG AND/OR Noisy, and crowded. Some good examples are Grocery stores, department stores, huge parking lots, huge streets with a lot of traffic, restaurants, and big city's such as NYC. The fact that I have trouble going out to these places combined with the fact that my family more often than not refuses to go with me anywhere makes it impossible for me to even go to the grocery store to get food. Leaving me hungry at most times. My anxiety is so severe and disables me to the point where I cannot even hold a job. For this reason, I am receiving SSI benefits. I am also slipping into a deep depression from being unable to leave the house, not having any friends, and not being able to go out anywhere to meet any. And that is mainly what this video is about... Please keep in mind however that severe as my depression is, My anxiety is even more severe, and I believe it is the root factor contributing to my depression because of all the things its disabling me from doing.

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[maiq21]

i feel you man i made my own video about my anxiety and depression too

[daveddon]

u need to go in the Marines, your too young to be a bum....look at yourself...your shot out dude.....I havewas a Marine at your age.....I am 48 and worked 30 years already, my dad killed himself when I was 17 and my mom was an alcoholic....I was beaten too....Your setting yourself up for a miserable life

[lived4th]

i have said the some of those same words before. i know i am random youtuber but i hope you get some comfort because i can see u have a very sincere heart and have a strong passion. i have severe anxiety too and my depression comes on and off. therefore, i wanna take advantage of this youtube community and have my account open for any questions or statements. i might not reply fast...but i definitely will reply soon enough.

[thanie18]

| how longg have u had ur anixty` for . i knoe it suck`s cos i have it for close to a year now . back then i never` had it . stay strong . =)

[markenhagen]

@MsAgnosticatheist If weed did not put me into an instant panick attack I would smoke it 24/7. To the guy in this video. I have severe anxiety/depression problems. I always had depression to a at a certain level. I have now graduated to severe anxiety and depression. Im an agoraphobe. Imagine have 2 HIGH HIGH evergy kids that you love more than anything and you watch them full time with no help from anyone. I dont take them anywhere but the backyard. They are 5 and 3. I am a failure as a father.

[diamondfairy93]

@K1ebcreamandcofee listen to this dude below me!!!! He's right!!! ...lol

[Thevideoclown]

I will tell you the cure. Buy excercise equipment, work out, eat good and smoke pot. Alll natural no addiction, lots of confidence

[heythisrocks]

Wake up bro get off these drugs exercise and practice talking to people go outside force Urself I Ben their that will help you the pills got ur brain fuked up man look at Urself

[heythisrocks]

Drugs won't help man this world is about population control look it up Floride I. The meds floride kills man I was just like you I went to Yeh money bin also I never thought it was the meds i always thought they was helping me man this government don't care about u ur a test subject

[heythisrocks]

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