Mom (Now on iTunes!)

My mom died of breast cancer on Mother's Day - several days after my 10th birthday.. and this song is the first in-depth expression of how I've felt about her death since it happened.

This song is available on iTunes:
http://itunes.apple.com/ca/artist/pjt/id416639322

CDs can also be purchased at www.pjtmusic.ca

Mom (lyrics)

Verse 1:
Open up your eyes and see, who your son has grown to be
are you proud of me? or ashamed of me?
take me through your life so I
can learn of who you are inside
please don't leave, I need you with me

Chorus:
It feels like all I do
is nothing compared to what I should have had in you
I so miss you
and I can't hold it in anymore
what I wish I still had is what I keep searching for

Verse 2:
Let me tell you what I've learned
mistakes I've made and how I yearned
for my first love, and my hardest breakup
can I take you on a date?
just you and me we'll celebrate
the mother's day, that you went away

Chorus:
It feels like all I do
is nothing compared to what I should have had in you
I so miss you
and I can't hold it in anymore
what I wish I still had is what I keep searching for

No matter what my heart pursues, it never measures up to you
so I often just cry over you
all the wrong in my life, I only want to make it right
so you can smile and stay with me

Chorus:
I just want you back, I love you so much
if you can hear me now, hold me somehow
I will never be, the same without you
and I promise mom, you're the only one.. for me

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[Nsaddler1981]

Hey my mom just passed from breast cancer. I'm 29 , we were in the hospital on mothersday and had her memorial sevice the following Thursday. I miss her so badly. I think losing your mom hurts just as bad at any age. Sorry for your loss. Thanks for the music.

[grandphinalee]

@Nsaddler1981 - Thanks for sharing your loss as well. It's true, death isn't easy at "any" age, and even within a family, the loss can be different for each member. I'm glad you got 29 years with her, each day really does matter. All the best.

[Samuel11722]

hey man im sorry dude,my mum has breast cancer too shes had kemo twice and in the second kemo treatment the cancer has spread all of her top body mainly in the bone from her skull two her ribs theres cancer and in the liver,shes had 5 ops on her. she just told me that she probley wont be around when im 15,i sorter know the pain of it man so sorry.this song made me feel sad man.

[grandphinalee]

Hey bro, I appreciate your openness and honesty about what's going on with your mom. Talking about it always helps, especially with people who will understand you. Making your relationships the best you can today, is how you prepare for whatever might happen tomorrow. No matter what happens, and no matter when.. meaningfulness always lasts. Keep your head up.

[Samuel11722]

thanks man nice to know theres someone out there to talk to.yer shes ok i went to see her yesterday at hostipl and she was happy to see her and i gave her a birthdaycard cuz it was her bday on friday and i gave her card so yer im staying with my auntey lately.

[grandphinalee]

That's great to hear, do what you gotta do bro, anything that matters, is always worth doing.

[debndonny]

your mom was with you spiritually when you firsted picked up a pen to write this song to her...very nice...I am a mother of 2 young children, I hope to be around for a long time, but this is very cool of you and to put it on youtube...it defines your love for your mom

[FactsAndFiction]

Beautiful hmmm my mum died of breast cancer as well hmmm it sucks but she is in a better place remember that .. it will make you feel better.

[DeViLbRaSiL]

R.i.p my mom miss so much :'(

[christiantilli]

i really like this song man!! its so deep ... i love it !

[FlexThatStick]

Hey man I saw you're comment on my old channel xXDynastyOfBloodXx and man I hope you won't have anymore problems I love how you make Youtube videos about you singing that well and by the way this I'm 120% sure this is my favorite song :)

[BoricuaChristle]

I just have to tell you that I know the feeling my mom died when I was 11 & my sister was 2 & she died on February 14 I know the feeling of someone celebrating & you with a strange feeling of crying. I just have to tell you that the song is amazing is all I wish I could ask her... remember that no matter what she's always on your heart & beside you like a guardian Angel & no matter what you would always fulfill her dreams for you... take care my mom died 12 yrs ago

[xXDynastyOfBloodXx]

Im sorry about you're lost. My mom died when I was 9 also from brain anurisum and this week has been hard because it was my birthday and it just wasent the same for some reason every year for a full week I will just start crying. But remember one thing man she is looking up for you and since she had breast cancer she is in a better place. When my dad told me that I always said but now it isn't a good place for all of us. R.I.P. my mom and to you're mom

[Boxergirl1998]

aww im sorri my mom is dieing from lung canser in probully 4 mouthes and im 13

[TheNiktheninja]

that is so nice im a boy 16 years old and i cryed my mum hasent died and i wood never want her 2 she is my best friend but i think it is goin 2 happen i hope not great voice

[317Brandon2]

this is a dept felt song i'm srry i actually cryed if you wrote this i really think you should take up in the singing career and you have a beautiful voice