Gay Family Values: My Suicide Story

This was a very hard video for me to make. I have wanted to tell others
the story of my attempt at suicide for a very long time. When I was
seventeen I was a very unhappy teenager in a family that cared more
about how we looked to the world then how we lived as a family. I was
struggling with my homosexuality. At seventeen I threw myself off a
bridge here in sonoma county. I lived that day and have never looked
back. If you are a young person and you are considering suicide there
is help. Please reach out to your friends and family or call one of the
following help lines: 1-800-SUICIDE or 1-800-273-TALK or 1-866-4-U-TREVOR or Send us an
email we are always here to talk. Love the Leffews

Our friend Sean Chappin has started a petition to get us on LOGO lets give him a hand http://www.petitiononline.com/logotvgf/petition.html

The song in this video was written By my friend Ryan Lill
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ybo63P2gx0I&feature=channel_page

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[MonsterLove305]

I don;t understand why your father was not very loving accepting person he may never have been a Catholic ! I am a Catholic teen and they tell my that my Religion loves anybody no matter what !

[depfox]

@MonsterLove305 I don't know what Catholic church you go to but good for them for teaching you that....The church I was raised in was Catholic and they had know idea about that kind of teaching.

[tboar456]

I was a sissy when I went to school. From the first grade on nobody wanted anything to do with me. My own family didn't want anything to do with me. It's like the soul or llight inside went out. As an adult I still struggle with depression and thoughts of suicide. Of course I"m on meds. If you're different the world want to destroy you. I do feel destroyed. I don't know how to put the pices back together.

[depfox]

@tboar456 Start by looking in the mirror and liking what you see....Shame on those people in school and your family for not loving you for who you are. BIG HUGS

[Rfritz09]

Thank you for this. This is the most sincere, genuine, personal heartfelt message I have ever watched on YouTube or anywhere for that matter. The tears I have as I type this message are cause I have been where you where, and I’m so thankful I as you, did not succeed in suicide. My only wish is that every person who has suicidal thoughts could just know that there are many who can and would love the opportunity to help them. I also, as you stated, am so happy, beyond words,that I’m alive.

~Russ

[BuddhaLonely]

...thank U for uploading this video...I approached suicide few times...and thanks God wasnt successfull in it..but now...loneliness....it kills me more than suicide...I just cannot make a peace with fact it's so hard to find good guy...all gays are only into sex, fun & open relationships...it kills my hope....sorry for my english...greetings from Poland...BuddhaLonely

[rob26bingley]

you look so sad in this video, it breaks my heart. Glad you are so happy now x

[mspuppylover65]

ignore the other people mate im gay too and im glad i like other men big whoop.

[Thatdude692011]

Thank you Jay for telling your story, God Bless you

[AkuziSuper12]

Wait is your birthday september 1st?

[armeniausa]

Your family portrait makes me feel happy!

[MsAlante809]

this was a great video and i hope that some where out there their are gay people seeing this and knowing that suicide is not the answer i respect you for doing this video and i really hope that your message goes through as many people as possible love is love no matter who u love 

[globewriter]

Wow. As a gay journalist I thank you.

[gayforlife2020]

You said this: "I just wanted to pain to go away." Suicide is always about ending pain. And for those who have chronic suicidal thoughts, learning ways to lessen the pain - learning a skill - how to become stronger so that you don't break up: that is the best insurance for long-term survival. Suicide is an option for certain (terminally ill) people: usually, healthy people don't need to go to that place to lessen the pain. Check out Dialectical Behavioral Therapy: you can read the stuff for free