So Much To Me [Disney]

you know you can't give me what i need,
and even though you mean so much to me,
i can't wait through everything.

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As far as I can see right now I have 3 options, 1) Leave YouTube entirely for good. 2) Leave this account and create a new one which only close friends will be notified about or 3) Stay with this account.
You might be thinking - well what the hell is the problem with the last option?
And the answer would be that I just can't deal with everything anymore. I'm completely overwhelmed with everything right now. And I have so much going on in real life right now I feel like I'm missing out on it so much by spending so much time online. I'm missing out on everything, spending time with my friends, my family, MYSELF and just so much, and the stress is really getting to me.
I'm exhausted all the time, stressed all the time, I never get any time anymore to just sit and BE.
And I know you guys don't expect that much of me but I really feel like I'm letting you down, and just disappointing everyone! And that just adds to the stress, and its this giant cruel cycle....
I'm letting myself down most of all and I can't go on like this anymore.
YouTube used to be what helped me get through the day, now it just seems like another chore.
And there are so many people I care so much about on here that I just CAN'T leave all together.
But I'm so torn right now.

So what I'm trying to say through this description and video is to hold on guys, I'll figure out what to do soon enough and I just pray I'll make the right choice.
But it will probably be the hardest decision I'll ever make.
And let me just warn you, it probably will not be the third option.
I'm sorry.
♥

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[iloveme264]

If you're going to leave don't delete everything. I love your videos, so even if your not going to make new ones can we all keep watching the old ones? ^^ And I hope that whatever is going wrong gets better. Life can be overwhelming, but hey, it's life. Life does things it's way.

[RumourDarcile]

@iloveme264 I have decided that I am going to be leaving; be it for a few months or a few years is still in question. However in the next few weeks this account will be going into inactivity. :) <3

But thankyou SO much for your kind words! :D It really means a lot to me and supports in my mind the decision that I KNOW I don't want to leave YouTube forever. n_____n And of course all my videos will still be available. :D So you'll still be able to watch them all. ;) <3333

Thanks again, so much.

[mepp30]

It makes me want to cry, that you're leaving... I dont know the story as to why, but all I know is its gonna be weird you being gone. And please Definitely keep these up, I love looking back on your videos! I wish over the time youve been on youtube that I could have gotten to know you even better, but Im so thankful to have met you; for your kindness, helpfulness, and pure raw talent for the love of making videos. I hope one day to be just like you, you're inspiring Vee. <33

[RavenxxRosexx]

You always know what to say don't you? You always seem to show my own feelings in your beautiful masterpeices. I'll miss you Vee if you choose to go. I really will. But it''s your choice

[MadMadameMe]

I don't comment on your videos nearly the way I should, because a lot of them are hauntingly cathartic for me. It's been an honor to be able to watch your videos.

From what I have seen in my days as a YouTube observer, I can honestly say that you are one of the sweetest people this world has ever known. There are countless people here who love and support you in whatever you feel is right.

I know they're empty words, but I hope you feel better.

[VivaEve]

*hugs* i know how you feel and I..support you in whatever decision you make even if it means we don't talk anymore. Take care!!! ♥

[shadow47468]

You could just go on a hiatus till you have everything sorted out.

I hope you Feel Better ^^;;

[farandaway123]

I'm am sorry that you are having a hard time, you never need to feel obligated to youtube. I would rather see you happy then see your videos, and no matter what you decide, I will support you. You are an inspiration to me and, if it's your time to leave YT, do what you feel is right. In the end you need to live your life, with or with out Youtube.

:D follow your hear <3

[XsimplycomplicatedXx]

(read in backwards order, I had lots to say xD)

since option three sounds like it's not happening, whatever you choose, I'm sure that none of us will hold it against you. Just remember that there are still people on YT who love seeing you happy ("seeing" is metaphorical here, but what ev ;D) I hope you will make the decision that is best for you.

Lots of love and secret ninja owl city cookies ♥

[XsimplycomplicatedXx]

I'm sorry that you're having such a difficult time. :'( I may not know your exact situation, but figure that the crap you deal with in everyday life is probably more than enough and that you probably don't need the added crap coming from youtube when youtube is supposed to be theraputic.