Social Anxiety Part 1: My Lifelong Battle

Despite my many endeavors and various activities I do. One thing that has eluded me in life is making friends. Throughout my life, I have always felt like I never fit in. I feel to make up for my short comings, I must do things that seem almost to beyond humanely possible.

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• RAD
• reactive attachment disorder
• depression
• anxiety
• social
• phobia
• fear
• suicide
• passive
• loneliness
• anger
• speaking
• making friends
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• single
• trauma
• childhood
• personality disorder

[Bassyswing1]

The relationships you have with your parents determines alot of social anxiety. It sounds like your doing these crazy dangerous things to get attention or something you never got growing up. I'm not making assumptions and assertions here but you cannot under estimate the effects parents and guardians can have on their children.

[RB902050]

@Bassyswing1 My biological dad left me when I was 6 months old, and my mom left my aunt to take care of me for most of my first three years of existence. You are right in that I do many activities to gain attention of others. Although I do get enjoyment out of doing these things, it does seem my goal is to seek out attention,especially with the more oddball activities I do.  As time goes on, I'm only going to increase the danger factor.

[TheDestinyRebel]

Go to google and type "sambo Zulu"

[Bassyswing1]

@RB902050

There are more controversial and more ancient views on what causes a need for approval and anxiety. Your experience in a way parallels mine. My father left my family and I was left to be raised by my grandmother and mother. I had no guidance by emotionally healthy men anytime growing up. I now feel divided trying to seek approval from women and men constantly. Some cultures say that if a son isnt properly led into genuine adulthood then he'll act out patterns from childhood later.

[FantastyckplastycK]

maybe genetics is a root problem how do u know

[letitflo]

"Until you have experience chronic loneliness, to me it is the most painful thing" - this comment alone made my cry.

[loai050]

Smile with people, make the odd obvious remark and let the other person respond. Join a group that is not exercise related. Sounds like you have Aspergers,if you find it hard to make eye contact that is most likely the root of the problem. I hope some good things have happened in your life since you posted this clip :) Feel free to yap with me, you seem like a very nice person.

[loai050]

I'm NT, but a fairly self-reliant type, and can I tell you that we don't make friends as easily as you think we do. It is not your appearance - Jim Croce had a bigger nose and was gorgeous when he smiled or looked sad. Firstly, resist the urge to try too hard, people are wary of those who come on too strong .

[Cavin21]

Wow, that's deep!

I can certainly relate to you, because everything you mentioned.. Well, it's somewhat true to be 100% honest.. I do things to try and fit in and I can't trust my friends, I sometimes feel I'll lose them..