Life a Jemi One Shot

Hey, guys! What's up? New one shot here for readingkitty1's contest, that I am miraculously still in somehow. I hope you guys like it somewhat.

Enjoy!
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Evelyn: (Hebrew) meaning Life

It's been 3 months since Demi died.

I opened my wallet, gazing at a picture I took about a year ago. My smile slowly faltered. I missed her. I missed the way she would smile when we kissed. I missed the way her laughter could quickly fill up a room. I missed everything about her.

It's been 3 months since Evelyn was born.

A piercing scream suddenly broke the silence.

I ran my finger over her the picture one more time before sliding it back into my wallet, dropping it onto a table while making my way over to her crib in the corner.

"Shh", I cooed, getting closer. "Shh, Lyn Lyn. Daddy's right here."

The cries instantly stopped when my face came into view over her crib. I reached in, cradling her in my arms.

"Are you hungry, Lyn?" I asked as I wiped away the tears from her eyes that perfectly matched those of her mother. A smile took over her face when I brought a little bottle of applesauce out of my pocket.

"I guess that's a yes", I quietly chuckled to myself. She giggled in response. Even her giggle sounded the same as her mother's. I let one lone tear escape my eye as a pang shot through my heart. It slowly trickled down my cheek, running over my lip, down my chin where it dripped onto my baby girl's forehead. She looked up in wonder, curiously gazing at my wet cheek to figure out what was happening. I smiled down at her, leaning to press my lips on her forehead and wipe away the tear.

It hurts so much to think she's never coming back, but I know it's true. Every time I look into Evelyn's eyes, every time she smiles at me, I'm reminded of this bitter reality. I can't help but sometimes think it's Evelyn's fault, but then I get so frustrated with myself. How could I blame my own daughter for my wife's death? She's only a baby. That's not fair.

A squeal breaks me away from my thoughts. I look down at the beautiful baby and thank God for giving her to me. Evelyn is my life.

After feeding and burping Lyn, I carefully lay her down on my mattress. She settles in, smiling up at me. I reach over to the bedside table to grab my laptop and bring it back to my lap, propping it open for Evelyn to see.

When she sees the background picture, she squeals in delight. "That's your mommy", I tell her quietly. "She loves you, Lyn Lyn."

She cooed incoherently, unable to form any words, but I know if she could she'd be saying, "I love mommy, too."

I open up a music player, picking a song for Evelyn. Music began flowing through the speakers.

"Sometimes you think you'll be fine by yourself
'Cause a dream is a wish that you make all alone
But it's harder to walk on your own"

Her voice came to life. I closed my eyes, imagining her next to me, singing the words to our baby girl. I opened my mouth, the familiar words easily coming out.

"You'll change inside when you realize
The world comes to life and everything's right
From beginning to end when you have a friend by your side"

Lyn's giggles fill me up with happiness. Each time she looks into my eyes I see Demi. Whenever she smiles during a peaceful slumber I see Demi. Every glance at my daughter reminds me of Demi.

Right now, it's still a fresh wound. I'm not getting over her death anytime soon. But I know that someday it'll get better. And I know someday I'll be able to look at my daughter and see how blessed I am. Demi gave me a child to love unconditionally. What more can I ask for?

She's all I have left to live for now. She's my life.
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A little different than anything I've written before. Let me know how it is.

Love you lots, Dev

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[cutie19009]

you made me cry reading that but it was cute.!=]

[luvinit963]

@cutie19009 aww that's so sweet!

[MCSLovatoGomez]

It's beautiful! I had a tear in my eye! =)

[luvinit963]

@MCSLovatoGomez awww thank you!

[njerryjonas14]

aw so cute :)

[luvinit963]

@njerryjonas14 (:

[LivinInALonelyWorld]

@BigLovatoFan oh whoops sorry. this is luvinit963 on my other account

[LivinInALonelyWorld]

@BigLovatoFan :) thank you so much

[BigLovatoFan]

Somehow I never cry while reading.... So I can't say I cried... But I'm very touched...

[VENUSxMARSxx]

I'm crying.. This is beautiful. (:

[cutie19009]

@luvinit963 np it was cute i couldn't stop watching it and crying!!!!!!!!!!=]

[OiSuportingNAndZ]

my eyes are watering. :') amazing job! <3