Sometimes Jessica is a Failure

This video was made from videos I made over two years ago. I was very thin. Depression and eating disorders are very real. I was unhealthy and unhappy. Can't say much has changed but I do feel better now and I have gained weight and better insight into truth and happiness. I decided I want to be happy.
I do think I was sexier thinner however I felt miserable starving myself all the time. Please enjoy the show and the music ;D Blank by Failure


NO conviction in your numb mind
a hidden cell of chemicals
keep your soul on my projection
never turn on the camera

because- I kinda like the blank way
I fill up my life
I don't care for nothing
that gets me too high
I want some dampend spirits
and black and bitter spoons
I'm not looking for affection
I'm living on the moon

No conviction in your voice box
it's buried low beneath the guilt
It all seems real as you whisper
she lies warm and the smell is you

but she knows
I kinda like the blank way
you fill up my mind
I don't care for nothing
that gets me too high
I want some dampened spirits
and black and bitter spoons
I'm not looking for reflection
I'm living on the moon

Here I am
right at home
in my crater
here I am
feeling old
here I am
wishing for
a miracle

I need you to know
That I like the blank way
I fill up the sky
and I care for nothin
you put in my mind
I like the blank way
you fill up my mind
I like the blank way
you fill up my mind
I like the blank way
you fill up my mind

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[christyvee]

you were sexy then, but you are sexy now, and you have so much fun in your recent vids. and thats sexy too.

[sometimesjessica]

Thank you! didn't mean for this video to be so melancholy. I am enjoying being silly and carefree much more than ever! This is just a trip down memory lane.

[GothicDolly24]

i just want to say

i love you jess

*hugs*

thank you for being a friend

i enjoy talking to you

i love watching your vids

much love, a friend

Mia

xoxo

[KaylaShadows]

Its good to hear you are feeling better.I hope that is still the case.You did still look very good but,if healthier means a little more weight,its better to be healthier than sexier I guess.I enjoyed the video.Sorry to hear about rough times.I know them well too. hugs to you. ~Kayla

[aqualobster]

your so arousing. every night i wish a woman like you would walk through my wall and come be with me. why must reality be like this!?!?

[fitnesschick2011]

Wow Jessica, I really enjoyed this one. Thank you!

[GothicDolly24]

Jessi this video still gets to me every time.. and I just have to say i love you.. over the past few years you been a wonderful friend and i am glad to know such a wonderful person

[frank82271]

cant stop watching this one, my GAWD she is so sexy!

[tredeep]

wow..I see what you mean, but this is a great vid, thx for sharing dolll, Stay sexy ; )

[jonnyasprin]

finally i get to see your face,your beautiful all the way just as i thought,i have a short video of myself on my channel,if you'd like to see what i look like.tks again for posting all your great videos.

[HumeAnnoyed]

this is meant to be a positive comment. it took me a few vids to realize that sometimes jessica is jessica and sometimes i guess she's someone else.

sometimes i'm a messiah. sometimes i'm just a man sifting through the internet watching the ashes float down into patterns anthropologists will write books about and no one will read.

[1luvhot]

Wow Cane even see your legs a few frames. Your cute

[JackieLolaBender]

The show was very moving. I'm glad things are going better for you now. If it helps, in my eyes, you're a success.