If We Kiss... A Jonas Brothers Story. Chapter 79

Sorry it took so long lol xD
Thank you Ysanne for suggesting this song, thank you Jana for sending it :D
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Summer’s POV. I don’t think I’ve ever cried this much in my life. I can’t even look at Nick. I’m trapped between the wall and Nick, so I can’t even move. “The last time I drank…” I pause and cry. “I…” I can’t even think it. Let alone say it. Nick hasn’t said anything yet. It’s over. I know it is… I taste my salty tears on my tongue and I must look ridiculous. I turn over so my back is facing Nick and I’m staring at my reflection in the shiny wood wall. My face is blotchy, my hair sticking to my forehead, tears stained on my cheeks… I squeeze my eyes closed so I don’t have to look at myself. I force myself to call up that last unwanted, horrifying memory that I’ve tried to forget for so long. “The last time I drank…” I whisper again. “I…” Once again I pause. I swallow the lump in my throat forcefully and let the tears fall freely. I roll onto my back and stare up at that same shiny wood. I stare into my own reflection, afraid to look at Nick. “Brooke found me again…” I say, trying a different approach that might make it easier. “She… I was passed out. She tried to wake me, but I wouldn’t wake up… She called my dad. They tried to wake me up…” My tears drown out my words. My shoulders start shaking. “They had to call 911. They had to rush me to the hospital. I… I almost didn’t make it. If Brooke hadn’t found me I’d be dead…” I cry. And cry and cry. My insides ache and I can’t believe I’m finally telling someone about this. “They had to pump my stomach. I don’t remember much. But I…” I break down. I force my eyes closed but tears slip through anyway. I can’t put the way I’m feeling into words. I’m living it all over again. Waking up in the hospital. Seeing Brooke and my dad sitting there… Both of them crying, both of them in pain. And I’m the one that caused it. All the suppressed emotions from that time. All of them start rising to the surface. A sharp pain shoots through my chest and I gasp. I fold my arms over my chest, hoping the pressure will make it go away. More images fill my head, everything I had stuffed away goes through me at once. The disgusted look on Brandon’s face when I told him. My mom… Daddy… But most of all Brooke. How her faced looked when she told me what had happened. The way her eyes were all red from crying. I turn over and I look at Nick. “Nick I…” I don’t know what to say. The sharp pain is still very evident in my chest and tears are streaming down my face. Nick turns to me and my heart breaks. This is it. My blurred vision suddenly clears up and I can actually see Nick clearly. He looks at my face and I stare into his eyes. They look sad and there’re tears in them. It hurts me more to see that he’s upset. Or just really angry. My tears start drying up, but when Nick moves, they come again. They’re rolling down my cheeks full speed. “Nick…” I cry pleadingly. Nick shakes his head and looks at me. He puts his palm on my cheek and rubs away my tears. Then he leans down and kisses me so softly. I pull away and quickly roll over him. “Summer!” Nick calls after me. I ignore him and my feelings overpower me. I violently push the door open and run to the back where I pass Brooke, Kevin and Joe. I ignore them, tears streaming down my cheeks, and crash into the bathroom. I slam the door and lock it quickly. I slide down the wall and end up on the bathroom floor, crying. It feels all too familiar. This is exactly what happened with Brandon. Only Brandon was being a jerk about it. At least Nick had the decency to kiss me goodbye. “Summer, sweetie. What’s wrong? Summer?” Brooke asks, sounding worried and concerned. “SUMMER!” I hear Nick yell, his voice sounding strained. “What did you do to her?!” Kevin asks Nick angrily. Nick ignores him. “Summer!” Nick calls out to me. He reaches the door and bangs on it. “Summer!” he calls again. “Nick, leave…” Brooke whispers with venom in her voice. Anyone would back away from that tone. Everyone except Nick that is. “No. I’m not leaving…” Nick replies. “Summer…” he pleads. “Get the HELL away from her Nick!” Brooke spats. Nick stays quiet. “As soon as this bus stops, we’re taking the first flight back to New York,” Brooke hisses. -----------
Yeah... I did a lot to get this right in my opinion. Ask Nancy. For the sake of my writing, I forced myself to cry, read the ending of Marley and Me, listened to sad songs. Watched the sad parts of movies... So yeah. I'm such an idiot xD
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[kmandze33]

Damn Summer had to think negative!! GAHHHHHHH lol she better not leave D: DAMN YOU ALLLLLLLL

GGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRR D:

[xbeckiilovesjbx]

i did that with another chapter, at 2am. my mum thought she was having a dream. it all worked out well. no punishment. :)

[CiaraT584]

OMJ !! That was......omj!!!

you are a truly amazing writer !!

[JBKevinJonas]

OMG im crying ... our an awesome write x

[MsDramaQueen913]

OMG... i cried so much in this.... you write and cry.... but im an actress so when i read stuff or watch films or even tv programmes i empathize so much with the characters that I AM them..... you really are an amazing writer...

[2good2be4gottenepms]

nNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO­OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO­OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO­OOOO! I FEEL LIKE CRYING BUT ITS 4:20AM AND I JUST CAME FROM A BBQ EARLIER AND HAD LIKE FIVE SPRITES AND A COKE AN HOUR AGO. IM FREAKIN HYPER

[AllyandFroggy]

wow brooke thinks hes going to leave! no!!!!

[snowfoxangel1996]

WoW. that was...WoW...

[madison50364]

To what you said about listening to sad things, I do something similar. When the two main characters have to argue, I totally get into character. I even cry at times. It's devotion to writing so props. And yeah, reading again. Haha.

[Janaaahaa]

I LOVE THIS SONG!

okay gonna read the chap

oh hahaaa, that's right, I sent it to ya hahaha xD

I thank myself for that cause I really really love that song!

you are not an idiot!

and they are not leaving cause nick IS going to be all perfect, if he isn't i'm come over there personally to .. I don't know what him (not gonna kill him hihi) yeah

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like i could make anyone else coming.. hmm.. had to say that;)

[TheNickJonasFanatic1]

OMJ that was the saddest thing im actually crying right now!!!!!! wow....... you make it sooo realistic!!!!! and brooke shouldnt tell nick to back off!!!! he didnt do anything!!!! he wasnt trying to say goodbye!!!! he was trying to make her feel better!!!