passing

i'm touching all my bruises
to make they still hurt
and i'm digging my fingers into my flesh
like i'm digging in the dirt
and every time i hear your name
it's still the same it's ever been
like you're all the air in the room
and i am outside, gasping

what are we doing?
were we ever doing anything at all?
why do i let myself get
talked up against the wall?
how's it feel to know you let me down?
you let me fall
did i really change you life or
were we just passing time?

the circles that i walk to mark my space
are getting smaller, smaller, smaller
and my attitude is faltering
can i do this much longer, longer, longer?
i'm checking both my hands to see
if anything's still there
and i've got these names carved in my brain
these stupid scars i bear

what are we doing?
were we ever doing anything at all?
why do i let myself get
talked up against the wall?
how's it feel to know you let me down?
you let me fall
did i really change you life or
were we just passing time?

you can say you're sorry
but i don't really care
were you just lying every time
you told me you would be there?
i hate the things i told you
that i'll never get back
i hate myself for trusting
anybody like that
and i'm going through the motions
like a habit i can't shake
haven't i been here before
in this deja vu mistake?
i am the crime scene
you are the evidence
i'm always covered in
everyone's fingerprints

we changed each other just enough
for this to hurt so fucking much
and every time i hear your name
it's still the same it's always been
like you're all the air in the atmosphere
and i'm dying for some oxygen

what are we doing?
were we ever doing anything at all?
why do i let myself get
talked up against the wall?
how's it feel to know you let me down?
you let me fall
did i really change you life or
were we just passing time?

were you ever really mine
or were we just passing by?

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[needanap624]

Dooood! Wow.

And funny, in the car today a friend and I were talking about pushing bruises to see if they still hurt. We were talking literally, but that was just kind of amusing. Your song is awesome though!!!

[stephkitty]

@needanap624 thanks! i feel like i've probably used bruise imagery before, but i can't remember. there are some symbols that i come back to again and again, using them slightly differently until i figure out the best way for them to work. i'm glad you liked the song!

[needanap624]

@stephkitty It's very good. I liked it.