Joes P.O.V
As soon as I said those words she pulled away from me and stared at the ground, mumbling "I dont wanna talk about it. Not now Joe." But I wasnt going to let her off that easy. Not after she scared everyone like that. "Yes now Selena! Do you know how freaked out we all were?! Nick and I were so fucking worried! Demi and Miley CRIED!" she seems surprised at this and looks up. "T-they cried?!" "Of course they did! Theyre your friends and they care about you! We all do!" she looked down again, seeming ashamed of herself. "I though that everybody hated me." "Well we fucking dont okay! And even if we did, how could you do something so fucking STUPID?!" I think that maybe I had gone a little too far because anger flashed across her eyes and she glared at me. "So now Im STUPID?! I just made a damn mistake Joe! YOU should know all about making mistakes!" she sneered. "Oh Please" I spat out venomously. I knew I was being mean right now but the words couldnt seem to stop. Like stupid fucking word vomit. Damnit I should have never let that one chick talk me into watching mean girls with her. "Dont even fucking bring that up right now cause it has nothing to do with THIS! I said I was sorry, okay?! And I fucking meant it!" She laughs but its a humourless one. Its bitter, and angry, and cold. "Oh yeah because SORRY makes everything so much fucking better! And it has EVERYTHING to do with this Joe! I ran away because my life got so fucked up. My life got so fucked up because of YOU! BECAUSE YOU HAD TO GO AND FUCKING RAPE ME!" She said it. Thats the first time shes said it in exact words sincesince it happened. All my anger flows away to be replaced with guilt. Horrible, burning, paining guilt. "Selena-" "NO! Dont Selena me! Not this time! Its my turn to talk." This is what Ive been fearing since it happened. I know that...I hurt her in so many different unimaginable ways. I understand that, I regret that...but I dont want to hear her tell me about it. Because I know that I'll probably end up crying. Because Im a fucking coward. "A-after...after it happed I-...I was just so messed up. Obviously. B-but...I mostly just wanted to know...why." I expected her to scream at me but THIS...Is so much worse. I dont know what to say. So I dont say anything. I just stare at her, mouth open, like the fucking idiot that I am. Her voice is quivering when she speaks again and I can tell that shes about to start crying. "I just...I just liked you so fucking much...and then y-you...then you...y-yeah. B-but I still...I..." she sighs heavily before looking directly into my eyes and I see that shes already crying. "I promised myself that...I wouldnt let myself f-fall for y-you again. But then...you...I...WE...oh fuck it." And before I can even really realize whats happening , her arms are around my neck and shes kissing me. Hard. She pulls away and I cant tell the difference between her tears and my own on my cheeks. I think I should probably say something right now. "I...I know that you should HATE me and...and knowing that you dont...it just makes me feel...it makes me feel...fuck...I just wanted you so fucking much. I still do. B-but I was a fucking idiot-I still am- so I couldnt understand back then that I wanted you...no, NEEDED you in a different way from that. I just.You're just...you're just so fucking perfect in every fucking way possible. Even when...even when you're not. Even when I know that Im the reason you're not. You're just...you're just still perfect in my eyes because...because...fuck...I just didnt-" before I can finish my sentence shes kissing me and this time I kiss back, and wrap my arms around her. Never wanting to let go. Never wanting it to end, because this moment is just so perfect, even though its dark, raining, and were standing in the middle of a smelly alleyway. Its still PERFECT. "I get it Joe." she whispers when she pulls away. "I get it" and thats all that I need to hear for a large smile to spread across my face. She gets it. She understands. Yeah, shes always accepted my apologies but nownow she UNDERSTANDS. Maybe nowshe can finally be MINE. I envelop her into a hug, wrapping my arms around her and pulling her close to me. She leans her head on my chest and I can almost feel her smiling as I kiss her forehead. "God were so fucking messed up." She giggles. And we are. But right now, I dont think that I would want it any other way. "Yeah." I chuckle. "We are." We're both silent for a moment before she speaks again. "Joe?" her voice sounds choked up, like shes about to start crying again so I look down at her with concern and pull her closer to me. Not that she could even get much closer. "Yeah?" "I...I love you."
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B.L.U.R.P - You Make Me Sick (For Real)by Jagsta27332,637 views
wow that was amazing and what bad mouths do joe and sel have but it was funny though
softballlplayer12 2 years ago
@softballlplayer12 yeah I kinda have a problem with swearing. Lol. But thank you :)
omgjelenarox 2 years ago