It's the most NOT wonderful time of the year

so my teeth are yellow from purging/smoking, I'm bloated like no other, and I ramble about how my eating disorder is the cause and solution to all of my problems. enjoy

I DON'T OWN THIS SONG:
Skin and Bones, Marianas Trench

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[HappinessIsNow]

Keep fighting. Everything that you said about the disorder says that you know where you are on the path and what you need to do. The only way "out" is to walk toward the door by way of your thoughts and actions. I'm rooting for you!

[SoyLatte923]

@HappinessIsNow thanks love:) yeah, I know what a need to do now I just have to find the strength to do it. I hope you are doing well

[mymahem]

Its a cliché but just remember you are not alone! My "friends" at uni used to post pictures on facebook , with me in them, and from an outsider's perspective it looked like I was as happy as a clam but inside I was a mess. Facebook is a lie half the time , its all for show x

[SoyLatte923]

@mymahem haha thanks, yeah I've actually just been really stressed lately and that seems to exacerbate the situation.

[SadLittlePiggy]

hey! im feeling the same way abut everything you said..i can relate. Im sorry, the holidays are especially stressing me out too, i dont want to binge in front of my family which i have done before in my past and i really dont want a repeat incident! I did something stupid today.i left school early b/c i was having the worst urges to binge, thats ridiculius. SO i did yes, and i have a pretty rocky relationship with my family too it sucks, feel better, and dont hesitate to txt me im here for u!:)

[SoyLatte923]

@SadLittlePiggy aw thanks so much love! it's actually not as bad as it seems in the video, I was having really bad mood swings yesterday haha. I order my meds from canada because I don't have insurance and can't afford 1000 dollars a month and they take a REALLY long time to get here lol. Once I'm back on track with everything med/treatment wise I'm sure that things will be better. And I'm sorry that you had a tough day at school. I'll text you when my phone charges.

[SadLittlePiggy]

@SoyLatte923 i agree, things will get better:) I cant begin to tell u the mood swings i have lol..but its usually inside my house when my familys around, ugh they frusterate me so much.

[SadLittlePiggy]

oh and for some reason the video paused half way thru=[

[SoyLatte923]

@WickedXena I'm a chemistry major, I want to go to med school but we'll see if I survive this first haha. I kind of have a strained relationship with my family but I'm sure I'll figure something out, I know I need to do something to survive lol.

[SoyLatte923]

@TheWinterHeat aw thanks love, I hope that we do :)