I'm Scared of a Lot of Things

The first song on my e.p. "Songs in the Key of Being Terrified by the Idea of an Entire Life" (or) "The Whale in the Forest" on http://www.benjaminjamesonmorey.bandcamp.com . The album also has the song "Couches in my Head" which I made a video for with Lauren O'Connell recently.

I'm scared of growning old and losing all the things I love
I'm scared of living with a lifetime worth of things I've done
When I think about my mom and how small our lives become
weighed against all of the pains of being young
all the helplessness and woe of now doing things alone
and the thought that time is no longer your own

I'm scared my dad will sell the house that I was raised inside
That I'll be alien to rooms in which I spent my life
And that all the things I've made will get lost and go away
like the sounding of a string in its decay
And that everyone I know will at some point lose their homes
and at some point feel alone and be afraid

I'm scared that I will only ever live inside my mind
I'm scared that I'll be sad and singin' sorrow my whole life
I'm scared to die
I'm scared to die alone

Well, I don't believe in Hell
but I think I might as well
It seems people that are raised to turn out well

I wonder what it's like to die
and will all colors leave my eyes?
and then will my soul survive in dark or light?

will the days in front of me hold some sort of mystery?
and will I finally learn to great them hopefully?

I'm so scared that this is it, that there's no grander scheme I fit
and there's no better place that I'm supposed to be.

la la la la la la

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• Benjamin Jameson Morey
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• Being Scared

[w0smith]

Being terrified of inevitability has never worked out too well for me personally. Especially after the inevitable actually happens and you realize you spent all that time worrying about it instead of properly enjoying what you had while it was there...

nice song though

[benjaminjamesonmorey]

That was a very insightful youtube comment. Thank you.

[nokeystothecity23]

How can something so sad make me so happy?

[kjmorton02]

I get to watch young people live this song each year. As a high school teacher, I see it in their work, faces, decisions. I try to reassure them it will be, and they need to accept that. I don't tell them it will be OK, because, sometimes it won't. But, if they will live where they are, in the now, it will be, and they can too.

[KatelynRoseable]

I'm glad I'm not the only one who's scared of everything.

[Armattan]

You're awesome, Benjamin. Much appreciate you. :)

[kdmelendez1]

what does your xylophone say?

[cativegan]

Thank you for being corageous and telling us about your fears. This way you help me finding courage too. Apart from the core meaning, the melody wrapping it up is lovely <3. A tight and warm hug! Sat Nam

[The7Irish0Rover8]

Very rarely does something uplift my mood in an instant the way this song did. You have changed the course of my day for the better and I thank you, and your poetic music for that. Please keep playing because the more ears you reach, the better.

-Your newest fan.

[drayneddrummer22]

I'm jealous of your facial hair. Honest to goodness, even if my music never reaches this level, I hope I'll be able to grow an awesome beard.

[CrimsonMoonShade]

This is a song that is very easy to relate to. Though it may not prove profitable to be scared all the time, these are things that we all are afraid to think about now and then and I'm sure that knowing other people are scared of the same things is comforting to most. It makes you feel as though you aren't alone. :)