Self-Loathing

What self-loathing is, how it happens, what it does.. How it affected me and my life. I wonder how many of you out there feel this way. You absolutely hate yourself?

You can begin to love yourself.. it is possible to see yourself in a new light..

seek the help you need


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[thethinkingfeeling]

All I can say is thank you.

[thecrackwalker]

@thethinkingfeeling You too huh.. we can make it better... look insdie deeper for the one you lost

[hj351]

i went through the same thing and am still going through it. This video helped me because it gives me a focus, I always knew i hated myself but I thought I had a handle on it. I don't. the older I get the worse it gets. I am actively seeking counselling now.

[thecrackwalker]

@hj351 Good for you. Therapy is the only that saved me from offing myself.

[Bledoston]

It feels like I can love any person in the world. Be they serial killers or saints. But when it comes to myself its night impossible as if I wherent apart of the human race, or a living being, at all.

However your experience has helped me realize some things. All luck to you.

Thanks.

[rockinrex]

You are an inspiration.Thanks for having the courage to share what so many of us has buried inside.

[Cornbag]

I'm full of self-loathing but in my case I have good reason, I'm a minger.

[photon72]

@Egregore999 I know what you mean. It‘s all i have left too.

[frugalnanny]

thank you do much. I am dealing with this in a big way.

I had the love but I never had the things I needed.

I watched my siblings and I get hit to left behind and married off at very young ages.

my parent dealth with their own self loathing issues.

[latehare1]

@thecrackwalker Thankyou! You are an inspiration!

[Kitten9Lives]

Thank you for sharing with us! Hope all is well!

[anoceanwithinme]

thank you

[chisao]

I am glad for you that you are getting better. Keep it up:)

[MsMcthomas]

wow

[JohnWesleyMethodist]

I'm glad that the creator of this video is getting better. I have been getting better too, but with many downer days :( We just got to keep on keeping on, by setting goals of where we want to be in the future.

[Egregore999]

@gplus46 Music and literature are the only things that keeps me alive.

[gplus46]

@Egregore999

There must be something you are waiting for? What keeps you going?

[thecrackwalker]

@Egregore999 I suspect you have had a terrible life, full of disappointments and sadness. me too, I always compared my life to the life my parents would have liked me to have. But even doing that I failed to get them to apprciate me. Until I faced the hurts of my past I hated myself as much as you hate yourself now. By learning to accpet the would never love me, I began to realize there was a real me inside. I am working on that person now. and I don't like my image, but I do like ME.

[Egregore999]

@thecrackwalker Yes, I've seen thousand of psychiatrists and psychologists... But I still totally hate myself... I ruin my life... =(

[thecrackwalker]

@Egregore999 have you seen any doctors? psychiatrists, psychologists?? You need to be able to have some psychiatric help.. I don't know thw rules in belgium.

[Egregore999]

@thecrackwalker I wish anybody could help me. My life is like torture. My arms are full of scars, my head full of suicidal thoughts. I HATE myself, I can't look at me in the mirror. I'm simply ugly, disgusting. Nobody likes me, I just can't be loved. Everybody around me is so beautiful... I'm only 20 years old and my life is already ending. I feel like nobody hates himself as I do...

(Sorry if my English is not perfect, I'm from Belgium)

[ireallyhatespiders]

@thecrackwalker Yeah, I'm the same with the mirror.

[thecrackwalker]

@Egregore999 Can I help? You sound so sad.

[thecrackwalker]

@ireallyhatespiders I am so sorry you had to endure that. I still cannot look in the mirror and see my face, but I can accept (kinda more than I used to) my personality.

[Egregore999]

Dying...

[ireallyhatespiders]

I've hated myself since the first time I was called ugly in 1st grade... it got worse every time they said it.

[thecrackwalker]

Wrong on both counts. Why are you so judgemental?