Mr Hyde, Chapter 2

January, 1st, 2010

I've just plopped in bed but I didn't turn the light just yet. As I write these words I know they are looking for what I'm doing...they don't even trust me with a pencil. I know what day is today, and I don't celebrate like the rest of the world. Instead, I'm closed in a psychiatric clinic. A mad house. It's not like I'm completly mad. I was the one that wanted to go here in the first place, before things would turn a deeper mess...I just need some help to control my anger issues, if they are anger issues at all...so that's basically it. I know I made the right choice, deciding to come here...even though this means that I can only see Sharpay once a week, in a special room, where I can't hurt her. it's kinda funny the way we spend time when we're there. We play poker, talk about totally whatever things, enjoy time like we did before I turned into this monster the doctors don't even know about. Or maybe they pretend to not knowing my issue, because I clearly think they do. I'm a monster...and a useless person that doesn't own his mind anymore, and spends his time watching his life as the public, with no power in his hands.
The only thing I know about this kind of transformation my mind gets is that it always starts as me fighting against myself...or should I say the other one? The one that hates the fact that I was happy with my life and wanted to destroy everything? Yeah, him. I don't know if I should call him Troy....it's a sort of bad twin I have in me, and sometimes he takes over, whenever he wants, when I least expect it, and do whatever the hell his mind tell him to. Yeah...that's just fantastic, for him, and a totally nightmare for me. However, I can't fight him enough... because he always find a way to win over, break me in pieces, and try to hurt the one I love. But I'm the one that he's hurting himself, just to fight him. And it's not really helping. Because we both know that he needs me to live, and that if I commit suicide it's over for both of us, so if it's not a nurse, he is the one that stops me in time.
I don't know if I have issues of double personality, but I intend this to stop, and I will stop this, even if the only way to do it is to sacrifice myself.
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[kdown36547]

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in looove w. it^^

PLEASE continueee

i WILL be waiting w. a nucket of popcorn by my side =]

i do love POPcorn (:

&& this seriees <3

[chanellovesing]

@kdown36547 thank you for the comment...i love writing this but i hate popcorn...got one stuck in my gum and had to go to the dentist to get it out. i hate them since. anyway thank you

xoxo

[kdown36547]

@chanellovesing

dn't like popcorn huh? :(

well..

i can wait w. a "nucket" of .. i dunnnoo.. SKITTLES =]

i do love skittles <3

[chanellovesing]

@kdown36547 YAY! I love skittles!!! Let's wait for the next one with a nucket of skittles! I'm thinking of what to write and then I'll post it.

xoxo

[budhooo4]

duuuudeee, you should so carry on with this! It's amazing!

[islandgurl4ever]

loooovved it i love the picture you used for zac efron he looks sooooo freakin HOT when he looks like a bad boy!!!!!

[Zashleyluvrocks]

Freaking loved it!!!

[bhaby05mhine27]

love it!

[watergirlzzz93]

can't wait for the next

[didush24]

Wow, that was really deep, I think that the fact that he knows that something is wrong with him will make him get over it!!

I really don't want him to kill himself!! I can't wait for the next one :D

[tizzyefronforever]

cant wait for the next!! it was amazing!!