Untitled-Chapter 6 (In my Mother's Eyes)

My body is shaking and I wake up collapsing. Not hurt, but because I'm tired. Bobby's holding me there tightly asking if I was okay. All I said was "Don't take me home, please. Don't" He sighs and carries me into his car. "Don't take me home! Please!", I say while I try to escape. He locks my arms down and closes the door beside me. Once he's inside the car he tells me to shut up. I'm tired and I don't really know what I'm saying. I'm hitting him, so that he could open the door and let me alone. But he doesn't instead he puts his right arm around me, which leaves my head on his shoulder falling half asleep. I see him smiling from the rearview mirror. Then I think; how can he be so patient..... be patient with a girl like me.

(((Asleep)))
My mom slid her forefinger through one of her curls and twisted it for a final touch. On her plumped lips were painted in a vintage red, she closed her lips into a thin line. Then smiled to herself. She once felt beautiful again. "Adelina!", a known voice yelled throught the dark hallway. Her head turned to the door to only see that her husbands shadow was coming nearer. She shut her eyes and her muscles weakened into a frown. He's been drinking again. Looking back at the mirror she finds me hiding behind the laundry basket. "Roselina! baby, go to your room.", she ordered while trying to bring out a smile. I didn't listen I wanted to stay with her try to make her safe. But then I look at myself and I'm only 4, short and weak. My tears will only cover 25% of it. "Adelina!", the voice became stronger. My moms smile faded away and she picked me up; and carried me off to my room. Her hand stroked from my forhead throughout my hair. "Baby go to sleep, sweet dreams, mommy loves you." Now I see beads of sweat dripping down from her temples; her fake smiles tell me that she's afraid. The feeling in my throat makes me want to cry, my lips curl because I try to hold in my tears. "Happy anniversary, Mommy", I say. And she smiles back in tears while carresing my cheek. She sniffs and tells me to close her eyes as she turns around I open my eyes again. I take a peek at the mirror, my mom closes her mouth with her right hand and her head tilts down. She looks back up closes the door. My room is dark, only the light from under my door is seen. I whisper "I love you mommy." To my curiosity I sneak over to the door and open it up just a tiny bit. "Adelina!", dad says with an evil laughter. "Please not today..", she begs. She knows that talking will do nothing, but she never loses hope. "Why are you all dressed up?! Are you going out again? huh?! Your going out with someone?!", he yells and see him grab my mothers arm. "Jason! Stop it your hurting me!!", she cries. He shakes her arm again and takes a sip of his beer,"Why are you all dolled up for?! huh WHY?!" "It's our anniversary god Dammit!", She sobs and yells. I start to cry because I don't like seeing my mother get hurt, especially from my father. He laughs it off and lets her go, while she crawls to a corner. "Anniversary?! hah! another day to celebrate the years of waste,piece of SHIT!!" Foams of spit crawls from the corners of his mouth. She breaks into tears while covering her eyes with her hands. I depart from the view, and slide against the wall. I saw her pretty face just descended into a mess. I put my head between my knees crying and whispering to myself over and over again. "Be strong mama, Please lord help us. "My body lies asleep on my baby blue carpet floor. ----Just then I feel my whole body shaking "Rose!!" I hear a voice call out. Then I'm awake. Bobby's hands cup around my face, "Rose are you okay?" I shake my head because I re-lived the past in my dream. I dreamnt of something that happened and it felt like I was there; being a 4 year old again. I glanced at the rear-view mirror and to see that my eyeliner was smeared from crying. "You were crying in your sleep, I couldn't wake you up. I was frightened.", bobby said. "Do me a favor and please don't take me home tonight.", I beg. He nods and pulls me into a hug.
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Fact: I swear I had this dream last night it was a nightmare! And an awkward morning with my dad today. So to those of you that had this happen before(dad being abusive); be open with me? How did you feel? This chapter was hard for me to write, it left me crying.

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[DeNiiZzE93]

that was very truefully and so sad

I'm very sorry if that you had to through for something like that

I just wanted to say that I totally get it

'cause a big part of my life was like that

and I guess that's why I love so much this series, 'cause I feel very identified

please, keep posting this one

I love it!

this one really make me cry really hard, was very harsh to read 'cause i was like 'OMG tears let me read' xD

anyway, please post the next 1 soon as you can

& remember YOU'RE AWESOME

[3illyboo]

Thank you oh so much <3

Everyone thanks.

[JonasDisorderBrother]

I'm crying and my nose is dripping

This is so sad! D: The music even made

it more sad! I loved it though I'm sorry

if you had to go through this. Now I know

so much more. Please post the next

soon :]

[3illyboo]

Aww, I'm sorry. lol.

Thx!

[sommy38]

me too

[lonleyhollowheart]

*tears*

oh my god

i hate you so much

(just jelous not that i hate you or anything :D)

[soyrebelde08]

wow that was dramatic, i;m almost in tears.

[crazycutiie]

aw , OMG .

that was really sad ;

almost brought me to tears ;

until someone interuppted my reading .

-_- that was amazing though .

and im sorry you had to go through that .

post as soon as you can :)