Self Portrait Shooted by Red Light

This is my self-portrait(Music:Excerpt from Varèse"Arcana").I made this video for my Channel Icon.
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In 1982,I was born at Fukui,japanese north central countryside,and grew up in Osaka,japanese second large city,that is sometimes compared to Manchester,England(Tokyo=London,Osaka=Manchester).When I was two years old,my father died.Working as a public nursery staff,my mother brought me up.My hometown,Nishiyodogawa,was industrial town which had so many factory in the 1960s(that is the high-growth period of the Japanese economy) and 1970s.So,Air pollution covered the town.Therefore my hometown was famous in Japan for justice over pollution(Such ploblem,I think now,corresponds to the climate change,of course that's related to not only producer,but also consumer).In the 1980s industrial structure changed from secondary manufacturing to tertiary industry in my town,too.But still car's gas emission tortured my bronchial tube during my childhood(I used to get asthmas).In Osaka,I graduated from public school(elementary to high school).And then,to study literature at private university in Tokyo,I left Osaka in 2001.I had wanted to be a comic artist.However,I abondoned that dream,coz,I thoght,such work is too childish(though I like Billy Childish:D:D:D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hunXj3cmXas
).After then,I lost in my life.And also,my living is isolated,I'm alienated from capitalist society,I can't assimilate into those people,cos,maybe I think,I grew up at small communist community(that's not militant,those who are voting for japanese communisit party).And,sad to say,my ugly face and strange,very shy character alienated me from that communist community.6 years after,I finished to study literature,writing about some poem of Stéphane Mallarmé as my graduation thesis(J'aime la littérature française,because of influence of japanese Nobel Prize winner,famous writer,Kenzo Oe).By the way my favorite Mallarmé's poems are "Brise mrine""Don du poème""Toast funèbre""Sonnet en -yx" and "Un coup de dés jamais n'abolira le hasard ('A roll of the dice will never abolish chance'). Since April 2007,to earn a living,I got a dirty boring and cheap job.There,there I exhaust my life,so boring that I often refuge into YouTube at free time(Especialy I like,nowadays,the song:"Janie Jones"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uR6bmMljBdI
).But in my real life,nothing changes.There is no hope.Right-wing japanese government(differnt from France,in Japan left-wing has a little seats,they are underestimated) always makes me brain-fade and japanese large corporation or rather consumerism sometimes do waste world resources.Public-servants,they are just conformists,Bisiness persons,they are just nodding,yes,they only have money based culture in Japan(Ha ha ha,of course many of them are not,but a part of).Most of our culture is commercialized.So,world is very boring.There is no hope.I can't endure this world.Je suis déraciné doublement.Now drifting in vain,I don't know where I'm going.But I wanna escape from planet of money like workplace forced to do wage labour,to the Liberation,for the Liberation,by the Liberation!
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If you ever have some interest in me,please visit my blog(in Japanese).
http://puis3soo.blog73.fc2.com/

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[musumesai]

your cute^^

[PuisSangSoo]

Thanks for commenting:)

[scopein79]

I just don't get it.

[XIncubusLoverX]

KAKKOI!!!!! ^^

[ComradeRed2020]

The only way to win is to show the real face of capitalism and explain what socialism really is. Only then will JCP win!

[IQ136]

I also have been hurt by air pollution in the Denver, Colorado, USA area and I also have asthma. If you would like to talk more about this, respond to IQ136. Thank you.