my pact

u want me like a drug
well, i want u like an addict
'fact i feel emphatic
bout my love for u
and it's a lotta work
gettin me all worked up
cos i'm the queen of subdued
and it's true, tho i'm not proud
that noone been hearin my voice real loud
but i'm done cos i'm pullin off this shroud
and i'm turnin up my sound
from way low down
to up to the rafters
people be baffled by my loud thumpin beats
i'll give away answers hon,
but don't ask me to cheat
i've come this far and
i ain't about to retreat
so button up ur jackets,
get some crocs on ur feet
cos this path gonna be long
and we ain't got no fleet
just a one-woman army
from the suburban streets
and that don't sound tough,
but baby,
that don't mean that it's meek
we got SUVs 'stead a pimped out tanks
we got country clubs
'stead a blinged-out thugs
we got plastic smiles
and still no love
we don't get shot and go away for college
but that don't mean we ain't got problems
those suited men have taken our souls
and given us green colored goals
where the mountain of profit
is built on stolen lands
and our lives are choked out
by manicured hands
that demand tradition
and other values like that
i'm pushin 30 and
just now comin up to bat
cos i spent the last of my years
with face laid down flat
ears to the ground
so i don't hear all the crap
comin from the grand warden's rap
those jailers wear freedom
like i feel trapped
but i'm tryin to peek out from
behind this flap
this space that's open to the sounds of the world
the cries, the screams of
"i wish i could!"
but survival's all i've known
it's all i was taught
tho soon enough the explorers
had me caught
in their nets, in the seas
fishin for an epiphany
they told me that beyond the clouds
are the big bright sun
but i can only get there if fast i run'
past the guards and their guns
in their hands
their heads
fill wit demands
ready to knock my head off
i stop and cough
and all this shit comes out
but they don't help, they just scoff
look at their feet, then laugh it off
but i ain't stopped to see
cos i'm runnin still
past the guards and the lines they've drawn
past the voices that egg me on
past those women with their faces drawn
and i'm runnin, keep on runnin
til i can't slow down
and if ur supposed to make me smile
why'd u find me this frown?
and if ur supposed to love me up
why's all i feel is down?
and if i've gotten thru the darkness
where the hell's the dawn?
and ur slowly turnin off what used to be on
but the sun don't set
it just moves right on
past the clouds and the gray
and the "oh no, u can't"
past the muck and the doubt
and the self-made traps
past the world of assumptions
the sun second guesses
and shines on my back
til i trumpet out my pact --
i'm only movin forward
never ever fallin back!

Category:

Entertainment

Tags:

• spoken
• word
• poetry
• rap
• rena
• sherbill
• inchoatepoet

[misterRDF]

Not really my thing, but I am 5 staring it because it takes talent to do that. You probably have more talent in your pinky then the haters have in their entire life.

[skeetrosauce]

You have a great flow.

I really like your style.

I also think your beautiful inside and out.

I wish there were more girls like you.

Keep doing what your doing because your a natural.

[MYGODITROBERTLOSURE]

omg you made me fucking puke

[abelardogreen]

I am pushing thirty-three, working to get beyond what I knew to create more love. I am writing a romance novel.