My Best Friend - A Nick Jonas Love Story - Chapter 77

This is so short, I'm really sorry, girls! Hope you don't mind (:
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Chapter 77: Life Is Short

It's blurry. It's so fucking blurry.
It's painful. It's so fucking painful.
She's losing her senses. Feels everything slipping away.
She hears a shot. She screams but it doesn't feel like it's coming from her throat.
She hears another shot, screams again, then loses her consciousness.
Death is peaceful, easy. Death. Is. Easy. Unexpectedly easy.
But it's also cold, and she knows there's a chance she won't wake up.
Maybe she'll never wake up. She hopes she does. But somehow death would be easier.
No more drama. No more pain. No more suffering. No more guilt. No more nothing.
Just emptiness.
That's the easy part. Letting go of the things she hate.
No more hugs. No more kisses. No more laughs. No more singing. No more nothing.
Just emptiness.
That's the hard part. Not being able to do the things she love.
She never expected herself to look at death so calmly.
She's always been a little scared of the concept of dying.
She wants to live her life to the fullest before she passes. But this is different.
She's not going to live anymore. She's going to hear her own voice from now on.
She won't feel anything. Just listen to her own voice day in and day out.
She won't know when it's day, and she won't know when it's night.
There'll be no change. Nothing will ever change.
She'll never see colors, never smile again.
She'll never see Nick's face. She'll never see his brown eyes, his brown hair.
She'll never feel his gentle touch.
She'll never get to say she loves him.
I love you, Nick.

Nick writes on his notepad: Does this darkness have a name? This cruelty, this hatred. How did it find us? Did it steal into our lives or did we seek it out and embrace it? What happened to us, that we now send our children into the world like we send young men to war? Hoping for their safe return, but knowing that some will be lost along the way. When did we lose our way? Consumed by the shadows, swallowed whole by the darkness. Does this darkness have a name? Is it your name?

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What Nick writes on his notepad, I didn't write that, I burrowed it from the OTH episode this school shooting was inspired by.

Girls, I also have some updates.
1: Watch Me Wither and Twenty Four Hours With You will temporarily be on pause because I have exams coming up. Tons of homework, family problems, studying, saving money for contacts og Boarding school. So I'll pause them until after my exams, I'm sorry.
2: I am getting a little better with my depression, not a lot but better (:

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[EdwardCullen112108]

i love your storys :) you are an amazing writer and out of all the stories i have read that are jonas fanfiction and even some published books you r still the better writer keep up the amazing work and good luck with your exams :)

[happyhille]

@EdwardCullen112108 Thank you, thank you, thank you! You have no idea how much that means to me, I am so thilled to hear that :D<3

[GoofyGooberLlamas]

absolutly love it! and no matter how long it takes for the next chapter illl still be waiting! Im so happy your getting better.

[happyhille]

@GoofyGooberLlamas Thank you for your support! It means a lot to me (:

[iamwendy428]

love it.. i have exams as well so i know what you're talking about but i'm a bit confused on the nick part.. what does he mean?!

[happyhille]

@iamwendy428 I'll try and explain. The darkness resembles all the pain, and suffering in life, all the evil people, you know basically everything bad. And that we let young children into this world of so much cruelty frustrates Nick. So that's why he writes it, just his thoughts (:

I really hope this helped :D

[EdwardCullen112108]

@happyhille  Only tell the truth :)

[GoofyGooberLlamas]

@happyhille your so welcome :) and btw.. ya know L3xL3x1235? The person that helped you decide on Watch Me Wither? Yah, that was me i just closed my account. I just wanted to let you know she still reads and hasnt just dropped off the face of the earth! haha

[JacobsBella2011]

This story just keeps getting better and better I luv that u used the OTH school shooting 4 inspiration, Nick n Alex's relationship sort of reminds me of Luca and Peyton's relationship. Good luck on your exams!!!!!!

[swimmerhottie18]

So bitter sweet! I loved it