RELAPSE // chapter two.

ENJOYYY.
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"Sammy, helloooo?" My friend Alex waved his hand infront of my face. "You awake over there?"
I sat up straight, putting my hand over my mouth as I yawned. "Yeah, fantastic." I replied blandly.
"How late did you stay up last night?"
"Really late.. just studying and stuff." Lie.
I went back to paying attention to Mr. Sedona's lesson on chemical reactions. But my mind swarmed with thoughts of last night. Just thinking about becoming anorexic again scares me to death.
I would loose everything, my friends, my family. Everything.

After school, I began to walk home instead of riding with my boyfriend, Kyle. Whom I almost lost three months ago, because of my disease. He told me I had to stop being anorexic, or I would loose him.
But he didn't understand, begin anorexic isn't something I can just stop doing. It's engrained into my mind, forcing me to stop eating. Convincing myself that food is evil. And that I too, will become evil.
I opened the door to my house, overwhelmed by the smell of cakes cooking. "Hello?" I called out. "I'm home?"
"Samantha?" My mothers voice rang from the kitchen.
My converses squeaked against the newly polished floors, I pushed open the swinging door. "Yeah?"
"Do you want to help me cook? We're throwing another party for your brother tonight, its a surprise." She turned around and smiled her warm smile that was too loving to give me. I didn't deserve that smile. Plus, the thought of working wit hfood discusted me.
"I have heaps of work to do upstairs, mom. Maybe later, I don't feel too well." I put my hand over my stomach.
"Do you want something to eat?"
I froze for a split second, if I didn't eat she would know something was up, "Yeah sure."
"I'll make you some shrimp," she placed her hand on the apple of my cheek. "Go on upstairs, I'll bring it up to you."
"Thanks." I squeaked.
On my way out of the kitchen, I quickly grabbed some plastic bags, stuffing them into my pockets, and racing upstairs.


I stared at the shrimp and rice on my plate, half of me wanted to eat some, and the other wanted to throw it against a wall. I picked up a small piece, putting it up to my mouth, then quickly placing it into a bag. I pushed the rest in there too.
The sound of the ringing of my phone startled me, I almost dropped the open bag of uneaten food on the floor. "Hello?" I breathed.
"Hey, it's Kyle."
"Oh, hi." I pushed a loose stand of hair behind my ear. "Whats up?"
"Just calling to see if you wanted to go out to eat later."
I froze again, my stomach aching. "I can't.. I'm sick."
"Oh, really?"
"Yeah, plus, I have to go to my brothers surprise birthday party tonight." I placed the baggie in the trashbin.
"Oh cool, can I come?
Sure, if you want. See you at eight. I smiled, even if he couldnt see it.
Thanks, later.

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