there's a [choice] you gotta make.

[read if you want to even to begin to understand]

this song is my situation in lyrics.

for those that don't know, i have had a career ending injury. that's right, unless i go through a small miracle, i will never ride competitvely again. i have surgery this thursday, and start therapy the next day.

this is easily the hardest thing i've ever been through. my entire life when something went wrong i always turned to riding. it's been my escape since i was a toddler. and now, i'm leaving it all behind. don't call me a quitter because i'm not. i can't hold on to something that i can't do anymore. i will always love the sport and i will without a doubt have my children in the sport the second that they can say 'pony' if not before.

this may be tough, in fact it has totally broken me down. when you take away the aspect of your life that makes you, you; then who are you?

i was given so many wonderful opportunities and have ridden with great trainers who have provided with horses and ponies that anyone would be lucky to have. i have fought my way from the bottom to the top and that determination has taken into new places in my life. my parents are the ones to thank, they have given up so many things for me to get to where i was. and i am grateful and thankful for every second. the last clip of the video was my last time in the show ring, ever, nearly 8 months ago when this all started.

i'm angry for losing the thing i loved so much, but incredibly thankful that i got to experience it in the first place. and if this is the worst thing that ever happens to me, i'll consider myself lucky.

so if you read all of this thank you, and i hope that you all live up every moment that you get to ride, be thankful that you are where you are. because there are so many people that never get the chance to do what you do, and that somewehere there is someone dying to be in your shoes.

leave a comment if you have something to say, i would love to hear it.
i forgot to put that i am now a full time volunteer at a therapeudic riding center near my college. i encourage all of you to go out and volunteer at one, it will show you what life is really about. i wish i would have done it sooner. those kids are my inspiration to recover and move on from this injury, because they fight so hard everyday.
alyson.

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• welsh

[ChampionAtHeart]

Aw i am so sorry :(

[alykenzie]

@ChampionAtHeart It's okay. I'm starting to realize that it's not the end of the world. I've started by instructor certification so hopefully I can get on training at a barn:)

[alykenzie]

@horsecrazy27 thank you. i hope the same thing

[xoToxicJumper]

@alykenzie You're welcome :)

[horsecrazy27]

@alykenzie ouch! I wish you a speedy recovery so that hopefully you can ride again :)

[alykenzie]

@xoToxicJumper people like you absolutely inspire me! that's why i started voluteering at a therapeutic riding center, those kids are the toughest people i have ever met. i know that if they can get up and be happy everyday, so can i. thank you:)

[thehorseluver8095]

@alykenzie aw, sounds tough:( anything that has to do with your legs is the worst cuz theyre the most important part! :(

[xoToxicJumper]

@alykenzie Don't worry, I just felt for you so much! I have been through the same thing. And you're welcome :) I was hoping to inspire you!

[alykenzie]

@xoToxicJumper I'm sorry I made you upset!!! Wow that is really impressive that you did that, I hope that one day I get the all clear to ride again. it's going to be a long road. thanks for your story, you have no idea how much they help:)

[alykenzie]

@SuperponyRidur aww, thank you so much :)