Difficulty Remembering & Following Instructions.mp4

Depression is misunderstood. Mental illness is misunderstood. In a very crazy, large family, I am probably the only one who is not in denial about the psychopathology that has been passed down through the generations and possibly the only one to be tormented enough to seek a diagnosis and treatment. As I've shared recently, I am about 2 weeks into thinking of myself as Bipolar 2 and already it has helped me understand a lifelong pattern of extreme productivity followed by a severe crash into depression. I am working with both a psychiatrist and a psychotherapist with expertise in treating people with Bipolar 2, which, I am told, is actually a very common diagnosis.

My motives for sharing videos of myself at my absolute worst are at least two: to reorganize my brain and to develop my thoughts about Patriarchal Disorder. I study myself in order to understand the culture that created me in order to understand how I might change the culture...

The videos of my depression require patience on your part. These videos are not meant to entertain you, delight you, or to do anything but give you pause. Pause. If we do not pause for pain and suffering we will never turn our self-inflicted suffering into wisdom.

Category:

Education

Tags:

• depression
• Bipolar
• mental illness
• Patriarchal Disorder
• self-knowledge
• denial
• suffering