Sometimes I remember, the Darkness of my Past۞

"...bringing back these memories, I wish I didn't have..."
somekind of vent video? I'm very anxious at the moment.
school starts next wednesday...I just can't believe how fast summer went by.
and it wasn't even a decent one. rain & stroms almost everyday.
now I'll have less time for editing & YouTube in general.
some of you might noticed that my channel was not available for a few days.
It also disappeared if I was on your "other channels" thingie.
so, incase you were worried about me have been kicked out by YT...no, I'm not.
obviously. I did that cause I started to hate everything...my videos, my whole channel itself...everything! I think it's because I'm way too worried again...because I'm afraid of school...because I fear too let everyone down.
I manage to fuck up almost everything I start...like I always do.
I had 3 jobs and I couldn't even handle one atleast 3 months or longer.
and it was not that I had them all at once. there were a few months between them. After 2 days I started getting nervous, trying my hardest not to do any itsy bitsy mistakes, and if I did anything wrong, I almost broke down, crying.
I couldn't sleep at night, cause I was scarred that noone will like me if I make mistakes, which is stupid cause we are humans & we all do something wrong.
So I have spend the days, crying myself to sleep.
It got so far, that I didn't even go to work. I pretended being sick.
and after a while I got kicked out. same old story, I let my parents down by failing at life. I can't do anything right. If it weren't for my friends, I would be dead by now. I often thought about commiting suicide, and tried once.
listening to Linkin Park and playing Resident Evil made me feel better aswell.
incase you wondered why I love those two so much :)

anyway. sorry for trollin' you with my problems. But I feel a bit better now.
so. about the video. First of, this is dedicated to my epic threesome Icey, Bloo & Kuri. I don't deserve any of you ♥
this is also for Midnight, another good friend of mine :)
he requested this song, so I will finish this, but with other movies than just TLK and Balto ^^ I hope you like how I edited to the song, boy :3
I will pm you soon, and I swear I won't forget you this time xD
sry if it's too dark but I liked it that way c: trying out min & max plus I gave it an overall green-ish tint, cause green is a pretty unused color :3
channel put back to public. I missed getting channel comments & pms pretty much x3 so spam me plz.
I know there's something I forgot to write down, but heck I can't remember it atm. this is bugging me ¬_¬

good night mah hobos :3

Category:

Film & Animation

Tags:

• animash
• simba
• balto
• vent video
• sweefox

[RisingStarMovies]

amazingly done,dear :)

ich weiß schon,eig kennen wir uns nicht sooo wirklich,aber ihc mag deine videos immer gern,sie sind nich der mainstream den du überall kriegst,es ist immer wieder was eigenes,das mag ich :)

die beschreibung hört sich recht,hum, stressig(in ermangelung eines bessren wortesxD) an,aber,hey, alle machen mal schwere,oder manche auch schwerere phasen durch,ich bin sicher du packst das :D

lg

[sweefox]

@RisingStarMovies DANKE <3<3<3<3<3

Ja...ich bin halt eher so der...düstere editor^^

Also halt das meine viddies ziemlich düster/bedrückend als bunt und happy sind xD

Ich bin momentan sehr gestresst, vorallem weil ich aus meiner neuen Klasse niemanden kenne.

Ich schätze ich hab angst keinen Anschluss zu finden oder als Außenseiter da zu stehen =(

Aber hast recht, alles schlechte geht auch mal vorbei, und wir alle müssen da durch <33

[MasterBlui]

You are not alone..

[sweefox]

@MasterBlui aww hun *hugs* <33

[AgataiGaful]

foxy I always love the way u choose and combine the scenes :3 this is no exception, ur style is always so fresh and original, u always have such a delicious touch of contrast and greyscale, and the green coming into it was a fantastic idea, it's so epic that it;s sexy

[sweefox]

@AgataiGaful your comments always make me happy, dear <33

[SpiritsQueen]

@sweefox Jaaa echt! 8D Und bitte, bitte ;3 <3 Awwww wie ich auch *0* Ich freue mich schon auf neuen die LP Videos von dir *3* *füße küss* xDDDDDDDDDDD

[sweefox]

@WinterLunnix yeah...I know this feeling :c you're not alone <33

[sweefox]

@SpiritsQueen Echt? aww danke, hun <33

sry für die späte antwort xD

Hab noch 'ne menge LP songs mit denen ich editieren werde ;D

auch welche die ziemlich unbekannt sind^^

Ich hab Linkin Park Poster, fast alle alben, einen Pulli & eine LP Umhängetasche. Von daher bezeichne ich mich mal als großen Fan. also...fang mal an zu küssen XD

[lucario325]

another GREAT work

[kittyzpwn303]

Your one of my fav editors <3 ;)