Borderline Personality Disorder raw from my head

This is what BPD look like as I would describe it from my thoughts, as best I can. With anger, suicidal thoughts, calmness and everything else. I still haven't captured the true feeling, but the first time I watched the whole thing I had goose bumps from heat toe, so it should give you a good impression of what goes on inside my head.

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[lisanne1689]

A message from holland...

Great video, well done. It describes a lot of things that are so true.

I only want to say one thing, i used to see myself as a victim of BPD.....

But please don't call yourself that way, it sucks and it is hard but if you are strong you can learn to control it, and then you are no longer just a victim...then you are the survivor;)

[Bryon1981]

@lisanne1689 I would have to agree with you. When I made these vids, I was in a really bad place and just really didn't care about myself at all. Now I'm doing great with a job, able to support myself and getting along with life. I used to see myself as a victim, and now I realize that I was only a victim of myself. After digging myself out of that depression, I've moved pretty far in life, and thank you so much for the comment. :)

[appletreeclub]

i can see how bpd formed within me, all the reason that cause it is within my life, its growing and i cannot do a thing about it, i am in mess and losing control and suicidal.

i can hold it no more, i am so tired i want my peace

[Emmjanearapoglu]

I'm a victim of BPD I thought I had it under control then bang I'm feeling anger and rage towards people hate for my loved ones and then today feeling sad holding back the tears feeling emptiness and no motivation an unstable roller coaster you can't get off ! Your video showed everything we deal with I just want my BPD to go away

[neonrocker4life]

This describes it so well, its completely raw with the emotion of it all.

[XxbloodyxrzorbladexX]

As old as this may be I feel like this everyday. I would go to a therapist or something to see what mental illness I actually have, but Dad doesn't believe I have a problem and won't pay or send me to one (since I can't drive).As for Mum, I'm not really close to her in the first place. So I'm at a loss.

[fbringiton]

I too have this disease, this video, is absolutley so dead on, as too how I feel, and how my life has gone. Thank you for sharing.

[natbrat42]

Thanks for sharing. I'm there too.

[dannibeth88]

wow. true video. The end is my favorite bc thats like the thoughts racing through my head. I have BPD as well...i just wish it was a quick fix. dont understand why. I just wish someone had the answer.

[1DFox1]

Great video, whats the music? Trying to google it through the lyrics but still cant find it