Oh Hello, I'm Taking Over Control

Well, well, well... long time no see. So i've really, really, really have been meaning to make an update, but have really, really, really have been busy. I went to Australia for winter break, did my birthday, moms birthday, new years, studying for finals, finals, and a new semester. It's just been insane.... and i didn't know what to make a video about and never felt like making one. This video is pretty lame, but it's an update video, so oh well, this is me.


Umm, i'm actually losing weight, hence why i named it "oh hello, i'm taking over control"... but I mean, don't be disapointed. I will gain in the near future, but there are tons of negatives in my life that just don't get along with gaining. I'm in tennis again, and i've just really have had terrible self esteem lately. My parents are the same health nuts, and i really want to get a relationship. I've been haveing really bad arguements with my family as well, and have just naturally not been eating enough to even gain. This is also all just a trial, to see if i truely like it or not. I honestly love gaining, and love the extra chub, but just not at this moment in my life. Highschool is a pain, clothing is a pain, not having enough money for anything is a pain, being self concious is a pain, trying to do well in sports is a pain, trying to get a relationship is a pain. And then there is that one positive.. having fun with fat... by myself. Yeah, not working out very well. So until some of these things start going a little better, i'm going to continue on my weight-loss journey.

So now that i've lost your attention through the words "weightloss".... i've decided that i want to start making a new spin on gainer videos.. since i'm not really going to have your attention any more with my weight descending. I've been in a film class, and have a really huge interest in making videos. I know that my videos are pretty monotone, and sometimes repetative, but i do try to keep some interest in them. Once i get a propper editing system, or even the same one i use at school, i will be making much funner videos that have to do with gaining. As for now, i'm still not comfortable with showing my face, and you'll just have to do without. I hope that my future videos can still spark your interest even if my body doesn't. Please be supportive as i already deal with OH so much, and i don't need any negative feedback from this. Depression has been pretty rescent in my life as well, and it's now progressing but has hit some all time lows, but i did not harm myself in any way.

So, I hope you like my not-so-fatter body, as i've lost about 30 pounds since my last video and i'm about 175 pounds now... but maybe 180 in the video. I can gain/ lose pretty easily, and consider it a gift. So if i do gain, then look out for me, because i'll probably come back eventually. I always go through phases, but this phase has hit me a little harder than previous ones. I do appologize for my bi-polarness about gaining. But, i've come to realize that this is what I want. I'm doing this for myself. I'm not doing this because of anyone else. I'm doing this so i can get a grip on my life. I'm doing this to not be disgusted when i look at a mirror. I'm doing this to find myself, and to find my true happiness in life. I'm doing this because i feel like trying. I'm doing this for a reason, and for my reasons only. Please don't judge.

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• teen
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• belly
• taking
• over
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• hello
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• 180
• pounds

[TheApzw]

The discription made me sad i just want to give u a hug. But u look good still. I hope u find yourself

[FattenMeFatter]

@TheApzw hugs are welcome. Things are kinda better :)

[GreenOrangeBlack]

I really admire your confidence and you seem so happy with yourself. :)

I'm 15, 5,1" and weigh 101lbs... I would not dare to do anything like this. I would be so worried what people think, you're so relaxed about it. You're so cute and I am sure you will find a girl :)

Whether you gain weight or lose it, it's up to you. Being fat or being thin won't change you as a person, just be happy with yourself. :)

X

[FattenMeFatter]

@GreenOrangeBlack this is probably the best comment i've gotten. Thank you so much. I will definitely remember this.

[Angad6484]

Awesome that you're losing weight. This is what you should be doing. It will be a greater accomplishment if you get a six pack now rather that that stupid fat gut which will only make your life worse! Can't believe how stupid people on here are that encourage others to get fat.. like seriously.

[FattenMeFatter]

@Angad6484 I actually like gaining weight, just under circumstances it's not fun at all right now. People are not wrong for encouraging for people to gain weight. I rather appreciate all the comments I get, and I really take them to heart that people wouldn't mind a bigger me. So, no people are not stupid for encouraging, they are helping many people's self esteem and really do like extra weight on people. A fat gut will be the least of my worries making my life worse. But thanks, i guess.

[vancegower29]

I absolutely love your assertiveness and your determination to stick with your morals and listen to your body, and for that, you are absolutely one of my favorite people now.

You look great! And you look even better when you're confident in your decisions. And yeah, high school can be a real pain. College is going to make you smile a 4-year-wide grin. Don't lose hope! You're awesome!

[sandyyybabeeey]

And btw you'd look cute fat, skinny, obese, muscular, you name it!(:

[sandyyybabeeey]

It doesn't matter how much you weigh as long as your happy with yourself. And whether your into guys or girls, (PLEASE!) you'll find the right person! Just don't get discouraged(:

[FioreTheDragon]

Dude, you know I don't mind how much you weight, just seeing you fine is good enough for me and hey it's you're life, do what you want to do with it. And dude me too I get disgusted when I look in the mirror but I keep on going in life telling myself "We all have our match (someone to love) in the world." Live life to the fullest dude!

[theBIGbang500]

Don't know why your self concious, you have a great body. :)

[maoriori94]

I want to lose some weight too and i wanted to ask you your on a diet and you work out? or just on a diet? cause i dont have time to work out with school and work and i just wanna be on a diet but i will lose some weight if i wont work out ?

right?

please tell me that's right :(

i dont want to be fluffy anymore

please

:(

[100asdfjkl]

sincerest best wishes as you work your way through adolescence.

[TheApzw]

@xXtitoineXx25 lol thanks :D

[biOh4z4Rd1]

Lol and to those thinking this I DO use "O_o" alot... It's mah thang... Jk O_o but I do use it alot... Ok imma b quiet now... But plz respond to my last comment O_o...

O_o

[biOh4z4Rd1]

You look great idc if u gain or lose I just hope your happy... Btw I'm wanting to lose weight too how did u do it so fast? O_o tbh I have been having the same self-esteem issues too... I rlly wanna lose like 20lbs is all (im 14 btw O_o) if u could help me that would be great O_o