ed: recovery gets hard.

little update from me...
body image is WORSE than ever...WTF, how long am i supposed to be patient?! it's so hard!
also, news from the cardiologist.
and should i make a new intro post?

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• eating
• disorder
• recovery
• ed
• ednos
• anorexia
• anorexic
• bulimia
• bulimic
• treatment
• therapy
• body
• image
• dysmorphia

[waterandapples]

Lauren you are so inspiring to me!

[laurenlivejournal]

thank you love, I am so glad!

[weasalw]

Hi Lauren. I just want to tell u again that ur beautiful. The black & white setting is nice. Ur honesty is priceless. I'll also pray for u. Luv, Susan

[laurenlivejournal]

thank you so much, xo

[trixy776655]

Lauren, my heart breaks for you and all the hardships you've been through. I'm amazed at your recovery and so thankful that you have shared your journey with us on youtube. I myself am recovering from an ED and it is hell, but I am hopeful. Your videos have been a source of hope for me. I truly hope you feel better about yourself soon! Please keep us updated about your health and how you're doing. Thank you for making these videos.

[laurenlivejournal]

thank you, for some reason...your comment really resinates with me, so i just copied it into my journal...thank you. And yes, recovery is hell, but we can definitely do it!

xo

[czr7j9]

you seem like a lovely girl i almost feel like i know you after watching these videos and it makes me sad to see you unhappy,

[ivonciuca]

Lauren, you know what? just leave everything to God. If you don't do the pacemaker you might leave us, and if you do, you might leave us too...God will provide, just keep your faith, you have overcome an incredibly big issue, so just live like there's no tomorrow (in a good way of course) and keep up the good work. Just know you're not alone. (I know, easy for me to say, but just want to lift your spirit) :O)

[NaiadSoul393]

i love this video. for some reason. your honesty is incredibly inspiring and gives me so much hope - following your path of recovery is a very moving journey. i wish you all the best (and i'm so happy for your latest video!!!). you're beautiful inside and out, and i love you for posting it all. <3

[idotechno]

..i feel i must comment for i relate to you on many levels. i know well of the pain and frustration that ed's cause people.

over the years i've realized that what is most important to understand about the path to recovery is knowing that it can all end if you really want it to..and in the end, that's the hardest bit of the truth left to swallow. you've got to want it. this is a truth that haunts me personally. :/

from one soul to another soul, i hope that you may find some peace.

namaste.

[sumkindawunnerful]

You are incredibly inspiring.

[vissna1]

this video made me cry

you are such an inspiration to me to recover

i really truely wish you the best of luck lauren

[Divachik1390]

let me just say, i've been on youtube since '07 & you are the FIRST person i've EVER subscribed to (just now). I don't have an eating disorder so i cant say i've been there but ur videos are SO inspiring (i watched them ALL 2nite.. pretty lame of me i know) & raw & i RESPECT the crap outta u for putting yourself out there. It's AMAZING how ur experience has helped so many & even me in a weird way. Stay strong!! I'll be praying for you, no doubt! :) oh and ur gorgeous by the way.. little jealous.

[firefly1297]

Hello, i have bulimia w/anorexic tendancies, and i've had an eating disorder for 7 years. i've watched all you videos, and i'm sorry how tough things have been. I was in treatment this past summer, but i've relapsed. Hearing that your 9 months free is so inspirational and i really hope that someday i can say that for myself. Do you have any advice for how i can prevent some of the medical issues that your currently going through?

Hope your doing better this week.

[jackfromnyc]

If you need a pacemaker please get one. YOU NEED TO LIVE.