Moved out with my girlfriend

3.10.11.update. A month ago, I moved out & now I am currently living with my girlfriend. I am currently really stressed out with my situation of moving out from my parents & at the same time coming out to them that I have a girlfriend. My mom has not taken it lightly at all which makes things very difficult. In regards to my eating disorder, there is no weighing scale at all where I live now. So I have no idea how much I weigh...which sometimes drives me crazy. That's all for now. =)

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[chihiro0]

Wow! Sounds like you're really pushing yourself forward :) i can only imagine how scary it must be to come out to people who you love but who don't understand that any sexual orientation is as normal and natural as another. Congrats! I bet that takes some guts. Do you find living w/ ur gf is making the Ed less a part of ur life?

[ClearUncertainty]

@chihiro0 Living with her does feel as if the Ed is less a part of my life...sometimes. Theres a lot more to think about now. But every now and then (especially now) I do still tend to think about it...it still haunts me a little. Especially going on for about a month with not knowing how much I weigh...I'm a little to a lot anxious.

[LtDeathCa]

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sorry to bump and all, but i feel there are huge things happening in this vid.

*sigh* but yes. things seem to be looking up here. always a good thing. like distractions. i have my games, my gf, my work. and now i'm drawing a blank here. :F

it's good to see you're back. ^_^

~M

[sikkame]

so glad you're back. i found your channel during your "dry spell" of not making videos but i found a lot of comfort in them seeing as i could relate to them so well. i totally feel the same way as you when i can't weigh myself. i feel "lost" and unsure of how to feel about myself because my self perception is based so much on my weight and eating habits. look forward to more videos in the future. good luck with the new move and life. love<3

[WhimsicalStorm]

You'll get used to not weighing yourself soon enough. I find eating in silence helps to know how much to eat, rather than watching tv etc.Living with an e.d causes u to forget how to listen to ur body and to trust what signals it sends u. With time, u can learn to do both of those things. Remember to keep sitting with those anxious feelings....they will pass if you learn to sit with them. Distractions are avoidance, and that doesn't help in the long run! Glad you'll be posting more now :)

[njs311]

good for u and all of ur strides to moe forward! :) it may b tough but in the end ur going to b much happier for it

[SassyQ87]

i feel the exact same way when i dont know how much i weigh and dont have a scale around. i feel as if i have to know. and good job on coming out and moving forward. do what makes you happy. and eventually things will settle and ur parents will look at things differently when they realize this is who you are and they have no choice lol

[mzlangston20]

Just try and keep yourself distracted girl it will kinda help with the food and weight thoughts..and i wish ppl(parents included) would be more open to a person or their child being gay.

Happy your doing better

<3