Bipolar II Hypomania Racing Thoughts

Hypomania is a condition found in Bipolar II. It is a lesser form of mania, but can turn into mania. There are many symptoms and behaviors associated with hypomania.

This video is about racing thoughts. The thoughts come and go so fast they slip from my grip. Just when I grab one thought it slips away from me like a bar of wet soap. I can't remember what I was thinking because the thought slipped away and new ones have come to replace old ones in the snap of a finger. Eventually it gets so bad I just sit down, let it run its course and don't do anything because i'm so overwhelmed. Sometimes it is so bad I get a sort of motion sickness from all the movement in my brain.

The only person I tell is my psychiatrist. Other people can't relate or understand + i feel embarrassed. My thinking becomes more frantic. My speech speeds up (pressure speech). It is very uncomfortable & I don't like it. My thought pattern is scattered because it is fast. That makes me jump from topic to topic when I speak & think because the thoughts come and go so fast. I rapidly switch topics with no transition and it leaves people confused. I can forget what I was saying shortly after beginning speaking. I don't mean normal forgetting. I mean a strange forgetting where no matter how hard I try I can't get the thought back. Normal forgetting you can remember it later. I can't do that. The thought is gone for good, never to return.




http://bipolar.about.com/cs/mania/a/bl_racing.htm
webmd.com/bipolar-disorder/guide/hypomania-mania-symptoms
medterms.com/script/main/art.asp?articlekey=30745
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypomania
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypomania
behavenet.com/capsules/disorders/hypomanicep.htm

DSM IV & DSM IV-TR are the diagnostic tools psychologists and psychiatrists use to diagnosis people. If you want to learn specific details per psychology or psychiatry please refer to those manuals.

Bipolar is a mood disorder. It can look like ADD / ADHD due to the fast speed and racing thoughts. Sometimes people are diagnosed as ADD or ADHD when they have Bipolar instead (keyword being sometimes. please don't take this the wrong way.).

Some of the links above talk about spending sprees. I just went on an excessive spending spree while hypomanic. When I came out of my hypomanic cycle I was devastated to learn what I had done. I experience more than one system at a time when hypomanic.

Sometimes I enjoy hypomania and other times I don't. Sometimes it is harmful to me & other times helpful. I never know what each episode will bring.

Over 1,000 still images. I don't know the exact number. I stopped counting at 1,000.
Music:
1. under pressure -- david bowie
2. changes -- david bowie
3. renegades of funk -- rage against the machine
4. pistolgrip pump -- rage against the machine
5. fame -- david bowie
6. you sexy thing -- hot chocolate
7. what I got -- sublime
8. doin' time - sublime

If you have questions please email me. I will try to answer your questions to the best of my ability.

I'm sorry if this seems disjointed. I'm hypomanic right now. there is a photo of me at 34 seconds. i hid my face and put it in sepia tone, but it is me. i took it the day before i posted this.

NAMI.org for education, support & classes for friends and family
NIMH: nimh.nih.gov for publications and info

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• mania
• bipolar
• manic-depressive
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[citcat299]

Thanks for creating this video! It's an amazing depiction of racing thoughts - as others have said - great great job on this.

[HidingFromEveryone]

@citcat299 Thank you very much. I am glad you enjoyed it. Please share it with others so people can begin to understand what is looks like and feels like to experience Bipolar.

Thank you again.

[whiskerkill]

I have shown this video to many people over the past year and just wanted to thank you so much for making it. It is a fantastic thing you have done enabling myself and many others to explain what happens in our heads. You have given us a gift - keep creating!

I hope you are well and happy xxx And if you are not then i hope you have good support as you have suppported so many people through creating these videos :)

[HidingFromEveryone]

@whiskerkill Oh my gosh. Thank you so much. I am glad you found it helpful. That was why I made it. I am very glad it has been a helpful tool to you. I made the video to depict what goes on in my head so "normal people" can finally begin to understand & feel some freaking empathy. I am tired of the lack of empathy & compassion. I get 0 empathy, compassion & sympathy from my own family. Instead they are vile, cruel, scary, violent, intimidating & threatening.

[HidingFromEveryone]

@amytriptalene I've improved since starting vitamin L-Methlyfolate. It turns out I am B Vitamin anemic. That is why I suicidal. I also improved since upping my T3. I read a scientific journal about how a lot of people with Bipolar are deficient in T3. I have Thyroid Disease from Lithium killing my Thyroid. Increasing my T3 has helped a lot. Have you tried L-Methylfolate? Scientists believe 40% of Bipolar patients need it. No prescription needed. See Deplin dot com for details

[amytriptalene]

@HidingFromEveryone wow that must be hard, im cyclothymic.. although ive had 2psychotic episodes each lasted about 3wks each. Everyone always says "you're so lucky to be so full of energy and enthusiastic etc.." but I hate it, the awful thoughts that go with it, and the fact when I do things Im very impulsive and theres no planning at all behind my enthusiam. You've done a good job on this video. I hope ur doing ok at the moment. Wishing you all the best.x

[HidingFromEveryone]

@Th3venom91 Thank you so much. That is sweet of you. I was trying to show people what goes on in my head when I experience racing thoughts as they cannot understand when I verbally explain it to them. I decided to show it to them visually. A medical school in Australia asked me if they could use it as a teaching tool for doctors and nurses. I agreed and gave a release. I thought that was cool. If it helps them to learn I am all for it. A hospital in New Zealand used is for a seminar.

[HidingFromEveryone]

@amytriptalene I have Bipolar and ADHD so I ping pong back and forth from task to task and don't complete any one thing from start to finish. I call it multi tasking to cover up the fact that I am ill and have problems. I try to limit myself to doing only five things at once. When it gets to 12 things it is out of control. I am good at starting things. Not so good at finishing.

[Th3venom91]

@HidingFromEveryone I would just like to sday a few things.

Firstly, congratulations on making a video thats as close as i have ever seen to replicating what goes on in our heads during a Hypomanic phase. I was blown away.

Secondly, thank you for trying to raise awareness of our condition.Even though several celebrities (Steven Fry, Catherine Zeta-Jones) have Bipolar, it still is not widely recognised, and even less widely understood.

Very good video, keep it up :D

[amytriptalene]

@HidingFromEveryone hahah know the feeling, :) i have no organisation skills x