in memory of my brother lee

i put this little video together in memory of my brother lee who died on his 26th birthday in august 2003 of cancer. i miss him so much and i have never felt pain like it with the grief i have experienced over the loss. there was just the two of us and now i feel robbed of being able to share a future with him, im never going to be an auntie or share anything with my big bro again. before anything like this happens in your life you take everything for granted....we argued like cat and dog when we were little...oh how i regret that now! but we eventually became close and those are the memories i cherish. if any of you reading this have brothers and sisters please cherish them forever and dont take them for granted. tell them you love them often..we didnt and again i regret that now. Bad things happen in peoples lives and you have to carry on and try to deal with whatever life throws in your path. i like to keep lees memory alive, so i hope you enjoy watching and sharing this very personal video with me. xx

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[mrfourtysevenman]

how did he die on his birthday?

sorry if i pressured you into thinking about it.

and about that "god" thing. ho would let it happen. he made a man sacrifice his sheperard boy. and god rewarded him by bringing him back. which means you will get joy to replace it.

[fayethorp]

i dont know why he died on his birthday, i guess his body could take no more. but i still dont believe in the god thing.....and never will, shephard or no shephard, id rather have my bro here than have a bit of "joy"...that would never replace him. sorry

[mrfourtysevenman]

i had a piranha i loved until i found him dead. i went though that last day of school sad. someone thought i said my "grandma" died. and my dad was put in jail by my friend. thank god he just got out.

[fayethorp]

u r a freak!!

[al3xownsu]

i am sorry for your loss.. but to the guy who said pray.. its pointless.. if there was a god there wouldnt be tradgedies like this.

[fayethorp]

thanks! and thats exactly what i say....why waste your breath in praying...it doesnt work anyway!! THERE AINT NO GOD!!!!! x

[millertas]

Greetings from Tasmania, Australia. In 2008 I lost my youngest son and when you lose someone so close you wonder why. Why? Why was not you. Still as a parent I urge you to carry on for their sake. Isn't that what life is all about. Leave it better than when you arrived. Stay strong.

[TheTotallyAwsomeDude]

i know how you feel

[Bluestouse86]

i know EXACTLY how you feel. I lost my oldest brother in 2003. he was 23, i was 16. I was the last person to see him in my family. Nothing is the same anymore. Holidays just suck ass. He never got married, had kids, never was an uncle, it's just so unfair. Now me and my other 2 bros are married, and they never talk about it. My parents are so fucked up from it. It's hurt me and my family so much. most days are fine, but then i have days like this when I obsess over it. Sorry for your loss...

[3whisperedwords]

@fayethorp I hope that you change your mind about that...Life is short but eternity is forever. I do believe we will see them again after this physical life is over. Either way you believe I am very truly for the loss of your brother and the sadness death causes families :(

[ZenonOne]

Hay there. Thanks for the vid. I am thinking of doing one for my brother as well who died last year also at the age of 26. I am with you on the God stuff. There really is nothing. Death confirmed that for me. Hope time makes it a bit better. Hugs xxx

[ZenonOne]

Hay there. Thanks for the video. I am thinking of doing one for my brother who died last year. It seems it doesn't get better does it? Time does however seem to numb it a bit. I totally agree with you about the God stuff. What faith I had I have lost totally.

[king052206]

IM SO SORRY.... anywiez. iapreciate the song. whats thwe title of this song? plaese

[killaclown23]

I'm sorry for your loss, I lost my brother Jerry in May 1996. He was 21, I was 16. He was also my best friend and who I looked up to......I've never heard this song before and I'm sitting here crying listeing to it. I fell apart for many years and tried to join him, I failed but I know he wouldn't have wanted me to end it. Everyday's still a struggle. RIP to your and mine !

[Cosenza888]

Your video was beautiful. I am a sister who also lost her only brother, just 3 months ago. The pain is the most undescribable torment I have ever experienced. Drawing on the memories and making tributes to my brother help somewhat, and I thought yours was lovely. I often listen to this song for comfort. I also listen to a beautiful song by Eva Cassidy, called "i know you by heart" ... it has been helpful in some dark moments.