Bipolar Burnout and Resource Frustration 2 of 2

Two topics got tangled. What happens when you try too hard for too long and frustration regarding resources available when trying to become independent.

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• bipolar
• disorder
• manic
• depression
• depressive
• mania
• resources
• independence
• frustration
• burnout

[MorrisseyLife]

Other people are in a totally different universe/world..... i totally get that. I see everyone around me getting on with life, having kids, buying houses, going to work etc..... and here i am stood still. Im affraid im too good at trying to hide how i feel, which isnt a good thing.

I hope you feel better soon, having felt similar i can understand so keep going.

Luv

Cat x

[PennyAnn25]

Thanks. I do feel better. I have some things in the works, some possibilities of assistance. And I figure if I don't manage to figure out how to get out on my own, heaven knows I tried my best. Today was an OK day, mood was up for the most part, hoping for more of these days.

[Luv4Learning]

I'm so glad you said this. I knew that you were thinking this, and I'm glad that you finally expressed it :). Is it kind of cathartic for you, too? I feel similarly, as I am also living at my mom's house, and I am eager to get my own place again.

I really hope that you find a way to be your authentic self--be real with your therapist, psychiatrist and with yourself :). That's important.

Hugs,

Colleen

[PennyAnn25]

It definitely was cathartic. It helped me let go a little of that striving for perfection I always manage to fall into. It also broke through the issue of thinking that because I wanted my own place I was being ungrateful. I realized it is a very basic adult human need - regardless of how good you have it, having your independence always feels better. I should have known this from working with the elderly, their strong desire to stay independent & in their home.

[PennyAnn25]

Hope things work out for you to get out on your own. It can be SO hard, just the basic hurdles. There was a time when I was so independent & organized. I was shocked, I didn't realize how limited my function was now until I tried to arrange things to get out on my own. I've been quite sheltered.

[saltyeggs71]

Everyday I am just holding on and no matter how intelligent I am or how well I put myself together for my doc I am still NOT ABLE TO FUNCTION. I have my kids and sister who help but I can't do housework or barely groom myself. I finally am letting a counsellor into my home and then they will see. I look at others and think, "how do they live?". I know what you are saying. 100%.Bipolar 1is very difficult for me to cope with. I'm glad you did these videos. I empathize with how you live and feel.

[PennyAnn25]

A person could totally tell what my mood is doing just by looking at my housekeeping - 'normal' is clean, but slightly messy; hypomania is too tidy, rigid about things being in their place; manic is chaos, looks like someone staged a robbery; depressed is nothing has been moved in days.

[chocara1]

I don't think your exaggerating. I know exactly how you feel and I hope you get better.