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I'm loosing myself
Trying to compete with ever...
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Thanks for watching!
Lyrics:
I'm loosing myself
Trying to compete with everyone else
Instead of just being me
Don't know where to turn
I've been stuck in this routine
I need to change my ways
Instead of always being weak
I don't wanna be afraid
I wanna wake up feeling beautiful, today
And know that I'm okay
Cause everyone's perfect in an unusual way
So you see
I just wanna Believe In Me
La, la, la, laa
La, la, la, laa
The mirror can lie
It doesn't show you what's inside
And it, it can tell you you're full of life
It's amazing what you can hide
Just by putting on a smile
I don't wanna be afraid
I wanna wake up feeling beautiful, today
And know that I'm okay
Cause everyone's perfect in an unusual way
So you see
I just wanna Believe In Me
I'm quickly finding out
I'm not about to break down
not today
I guess I always knew
That I had all the strength to make it through
Not gonna be afraid
I'm gonna wake up feeling beautiful, today
And know that I'm okay
Cause everyone's perfect in an unusual way
You see
Now I Believe In Me
Now I Believe In Me
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"What is she doing here?"
"Mom please," Joe said, wi...
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"What is she doing here?"
"Mom please," Joe said, with a warning in his voice, He held me with care, I simply stood there, waiting for anything. Expecting the worst. Denise stared at me as if I were nothing, I took a unsteady breath, keeping my mouth shut, Paul, Joe's dad took a step forward and placed a hand to rest on Denise's as if to calm her down, "Denise, let them explain, let her explain, there must be a reason."
"I don't care, for a reason, she hurt my son, nobody hurts my son and gets away with it easily."
I didn't flinch, nor did I quiver, I understood where she was coming from, I being a mother to be knew that if anyone would ever break my sons heart I would grow to hate them. Joe took a step back and made us start to walk out, I stopped, "No, Joseph, your mother needs an explanation, and you can't leave your family, you belong here," he was about to protest but I smiled slightly, "I need your mother to know."
Making our way to the living room , and instantly it became full of spectacle eyes, I breathed out feeling reassurance through my intertwined fingers that rested on Joe's thigh, the warmth that radiated from his was nice.
"Mrs. Jonas," I said slowly not trusting my own voice from shaking, she raised a brow and sat there next to her husband , nodding for me to continue, "I need to apologize before hand, I deserve your cold shoulder--"
"Demi, ba---" Joe started but I turned to him and patted his thigh, smiling slightly, "I know you must think that I am the lowest of woman, taking your sons virginity before marriage, making him break a promise. Leaving him behind torn... I know that my excuse is stupid, but I was scared. How much did my mother tell you about my past with my... with..." I looked down, dropping my gaze, Joe tightened his grip on my hand, I nodded, "With my mothers brother?"
Denise stared at me confused, "Demi, I don't see what your uncle has to do with you leaving my son nearly soulless," I nodded, "Of course you don't, it's a long story that I'm not sure you want to know, but lets just say that I was afraid of being broken once again. You see my life has never been floating clouds nor shitting rainbows, at the age of Nine I was raped."
The gasps that tumbled through the not so small room, made me remember why I hated sharing my life with others because, then I would see sympathy. Like I thought, I raised my gaze that had turned to Joe's because he was cradling my face, and lightly kissing me, "I was raped , I know it sounds lame, but I want you to put yourselves in my shoes, how would you feel? Being torn away from your childhood, being put in shame, not having a mother there to cradle you at night, to wake up every night, every single one ... until I met your son," I didn't dare to see everyone's gazes, only Denise's, she was nearly crying, her mouth a straight line, her hand over her chest, "Your son would hold me in the nights, giving me this... this reassurance that life had a reason, that I wasn't just a screwed up girl, with no father, with no reason to live... without love."
I know I was speaking gibberish that I didn't explain myself well, I didn't know how, I couldn't find the right words except the one's that stood out, screaming in my brain.
"I love your son with every beat that my heart consoles, and even if you don't agree to us, you wont be able to tear us apart, because, because," I turned to Joe, who had those gleaming hazel , honey orbs starring at me as if I were a goddess. If only.
"Because what we have not even man kind can ever tear apart," I whispered weakly, as a tear or two made there way down my cheeks, Joe took hold of my face and lowered his face like he had not to long ago, but this time our kiss was full of love and passion.
"I love you baby daddy," I said, loudly, hearing a few gasps, but nothing mattered. Just Joe , our baby and I.
"B-baby daddy?" Denise stuttered, Joe pulled me to his lap and nodded toward his mother, a smile outshining the room, giving everything a meaning.
"Were having a baby."
Everytime he said that, it made this more real. Not a dream. A reality, my reality.
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"Joe I need you to go find something strong enough that will be abl...
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"Joe I need you to go find something strong enough that will be able to withstand his protest, were going to shut his mouth," He nodded, and ran off.
"Got it," Joe said after around fifteen minutes of looking around his uncles shed, Demi helped him wrap the silver chain around the dogs trap as it whimpered in process. "It will all be done, soon," she cooed, it was as if the dog understood because it stopped squirming and let her do her best in mending the wound, removing the trap that had tightly and deeply pierced his leg.
"Done," Demi whispered, out of breath, as it had now been around two hours since the incident, the dog had been taken a bath and was now resting. She had feared he would loose his leg, but the dog was a strong pup. "You should keep him," she whispered, as she knew well that it had been Joe who was leaning against the doors entrance, don't ask her how she knew but she simply knew.
"What I do with a dog?" He asked, Demi turned to him and smirked, "Well Mr. Bad ass, I think someone with a stone heart like yours deserves some lovin'."
"That's why I have you," Joe whispered, wrapping his arms around her waist, she tilted her head up and received a warm , loving kiss, "Not sure if that's an insult or a compliment," she muttered through longing kisses, he smiled and pulled away.
"I have to go," was all he said, Demi raised a brow and blinked, "And where are you going?"
"Somewhere, beautiful." He pecked her lips once more, then left. She stood there for quite some time, but before he closed the door he shouted, "Be ready by Nine!"
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'Be ready by nine?' the words had been repeating since she heard them, she was standing in front of her mirror and was debating on what to wear, should she wear the stringy lingerie that she had hidden in her suitcase? Biting her lower lip, she unfastened her towel and went along with her gut feeling, if tonight wasn't going to be spent the way she wanted, then she had no clue when they would have another chance. She was ready, sure before Joe was right she wasn't, and she was glad that he wasn't mad, but now, now she wanted to have him all, to let him have her.
Sex is said to be raw and lusted, but enjoyable. She wanted to connect with him in a whole other way. These days here have been wonderful, she has seen him in a whole other perspective. He was as if free from fear.
Slipping on her red dress, knowing well that Joe would love it, since it was his favorite color, she black heels made her short appearance more graceful, the curls gave her a sassy sophisticated look, the seductive smokey eyes made her feel like a seductress of enchantment, The ruby red glossed lips that didn't make her seem sluty but powerful finished her look.
"Demi Honey, Joe's here," Denise said as Demi let a nervous breath of air and grabbed her coat and shoved something into her clutch then walked out, Denise smiled wide , "Oh look at you, you look beautiful, I know Joey will fall at your feet," she teased, Demi felt her cheeks heat up, oh here we go again with the blushing. She was embraced by Denise and then let loose, Demi walked down the stairs, gingerly , the heel clicked on the wooden floor, she was on the third to the last step when she heard someone intake a breath, she raised her gaze and there stood in a suite and all, her boyfriend.
Starring into his eyes, she felt at home. At that very moment she realized that as long as she was with him nothing mattered, all the bad would dim, the good would be shared. There love was real, not something that could be played with. She couldn't believe he loved her, she shook her head as she heard the tight, husky voice break into her thoughts.
"Dem, you look beautiful. More then usual," he whispered as he had lost his train of thought, ironic that he was a literature teacher and was suppose to be a man full of words and what not. Demi blushed darker red, when he walked to her and helped her put on the black coat, giving her a soft innocent kiss before walking toward the door. She breathed out when they got into his car, of course he opened her door like the gentlemen that he was. Sometimes.
During the ride, no words were exchanged, they had further down the woods, she hadn't come here before, but as they approached she saw a beautiful cabin, grand. It seemed luxurious and what not, when the car stopped she blinked, Joe stopped her from asking, he got out of the car and walked toward her side, "I'll explain, beautiful."
Standing outside, on the porch Joe let a ragged breath , "This is my home, I mean where I experienced most of my happiness, we would come here every vacation and simply bond," Joe whispered, Demi didn't need to be clarified that 'we' meant his parents, he wrapped his arms around her waist, his chest colliding with her back, his breath settling against her ear.
"Open the door beautiful."
She did and what she saw made her heart almost bound out of her body.
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I can't speak french. xD
That was google.^^
Hope it too <3
wburs?
mine's in june.xo
wbu?(: