I'm a young mom with an eating disorder and mental illnesses. I want to die most days for the sake of my son not knowing me. At the same time I want to live because on the other side I am a very smart girl with dreams and goals. I will be a fashion designer and I'm currently running a small business doing everything I can to make it a success and my dreams come true. I have a lot of responsibilities, life is stressful at times especially when my identity is constantly changing. I am a multiple. Most days are a blur or never known. I write everything down... I am working on that. I am working on me. Despite my issues I will not lose track of my vision or time. One day you will see it too. This video diary I have here is another way for me to keep track of my life, sometimes I dont even recognize the girl in the videos. I feel like that's somebody else and it's hard to watch at times so thank you for watching, being supportive, patient and helping me understand. Thanks for listening.