It strikes me as odd that you care about this as much as u do. If you don't care & no longer believe then why bother? I mean, have a better attitude about e'rything! I was once mad at God 2 the point of screaming @ him 1 lonely day, thank goodness my attitude changed or else I might be 1 ugly mea...
Use the brains god gave u! Ya'll should be able to discern for yourselves