Stand in the Rain
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I don't like the word "recovery". (Part 2/2)
I don't like the word "recovery". (Part 1/2)
ED-induced depression = fun times
A Day In The Life Of
[Triggering] I'm just going a little crazy...
Updates: Hospital, eating disorder TX, etc
I'm a self-destructive idiot.
EI, Bipolar(??)... Recovery.
Eating disorder frustration
Me singing "Silver Bells"
Full recovery is just an ideal. (Part 2)
Full recovery is just an ideal. (Part 1)
Sk8er Boi singalong
My new fish!
School updates, etc (part 2 of 2)
How I'm doing on the ED front (part 1 of 2)
ED clinic, dietician appointment, etc
The truth is... ED is kicking my ass.
Moved into my new place
My first video in forever
Eating disorder, depression, and anxiety
My university courses
Me Singing "I'm With You" by Avril Lavigne
Singing "Breathe No More" by Evanescence
Not really doing so well (part 2/2)
Not really doing so well (part 1/2)
Wearing the jeans that fit
A long-due update (part 2)
A long-due update (part 1)
On pleasure vs. anguish
Update on life in general
I'm such a slacker. (part 2)
I'm such a slacker. (part 1)
Probably not going to Toronto
I don't want advice.
Self-destruction
Stress, stress, and more stress
Christmas food sucks the big one. (part 2/2)
Christmas food sucks the big one. (part 1/2)
Two days until Christmas! :)
Things are getting worse
Why is happiness so hard?
Re: 2girls1cup is for PANSIES!
Empty and hollow and blah
Re: ARE YOU NORMAL #13
Maintaining perspective
Depression and weight gain
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Name:
Cara
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"Do you lock up your house
Like you locked up your past
If I were to call
Could you free me at last
Could you slip into my car
Could we drive down past the fence
You and me in Shriner's Park
Trying to make some sense"
(Melissa Etheridge)
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Canada
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University
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Music, singing, reading, writing, politics, philosophy, sociology, psychology, knowledge, growth, inspiration
Channel Comments
RoseWasCute (4 weeks ago)
Hope you are doing well. :)
godallahs (1 month ago)
Great!
BraveNewGirl07 (2 months ago)
OMG!!! LOVE LOVE LOVE the hair!!!! Great for donating it too! I did that a few years ago and would like to do it again but don't think I can deal with that long hair again! LOL but maybe...definatelly a great cause!
KarmaJessica (3 months ago)
Love the Melissa Etheridge Song... One of my favorites... Love and light and hope to be friends... Jess
BraveNewGirl07 (3 months ago)
(((((HUGS)))))
thegamemasterfire (3 months ago)
shrinerspark, cool channel!
shrinerspark (3 months ago)
Haven't been able to update in quite some time because of illness, then busyness, then my stupid computer deciding to die -.-. But the general gist is: Really bad restriction relapse ended up becoming an IP stay, my first ever for ED, and I just got out yesterday. I am trying REALLY REALLY fucking hard to stick to my meal plan and just do mechanical/automatic eating, because I'm sick of this shit and I want a real life. It is very likely I will be distancing myself greatly from the ED community, if not more or less cutting it entirely out of my life, because it reinforces all the OBSESSION, and if I start obsessing I will start back into ED, which I DO NOT WANT. So forgive me if you send messages, make videos, etc that I don't reply to, because I really need to step away, as I'm in an extremely fragile place and it would only take small things to break me (so I feel). Feel free, however, to talk to me about non-negative and non-ED things.
Pigseye (5 months ago)
Secular Humanism is a comprehensive life stance that focuses on the way human beings can lead happy and functional lives and it posits that human beings are capable of being ethical and moral without religion or a God.

Carolyn, Concentrate on your new motto. Easy isn't it?
hope164 (5 months ago)
hi hun,,Ive sub to you for years now,,just wanted to see how your doing...we have alot in commom..keep fighting
Entilodont (6 months ago)
I hope you're feeling better now. If not: *Massive internet hugs* Keep fighting, ok?
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