It sounds very difficult to uphold the impression of neuro-typical normalcy. What are your perceived benefits of maintaining the facade? Is it worth it? Why?
You mention that you've spent around 7 years focused on learning how to act "natural." What specific training would you recommend to other aspies who would also like to put in the time and energy required to accomplish your level of social ability?
Are other people's opinions of you important to you? I tend to think that those people who judge you are not actually defining who you are but rather are merely defining themselves as someone who needs to judge.
It sounds very difficult to uphold the impression of neuro-typical normalcy. What are your perceived benefits of maintaining the facade? Is it worth it? Why?