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"Scars" Book review and Self-harm Q&A recoveredcutter 23 views I do a book review and will be taking questions and answers
Self-injury update recoveredcutter 88 views just a update on how im doing
Thank you to my subscribers recoveredcutter 173 views my facebook page http://www.facebook.com/pages/Self-harm-awareness/180112625362382
RE: self-harm question and answer recoveredcutter 233 views answer's to the questions that were asked by some people
self-harm question and answer recoveredcutter 183 views i want this video to be different, i want to know whats on your mind. ask me whaterver you want. NO HATE COMMENTS
self-harm update recoveredcutter 138 views http://www.facebook.com/pages/Self-harm-awareness/180112625362382 hey guys, its been a while since i made a video and thought i would make a update video. hope you like it.
March 1st self-injury awareness recoveredcutter 777 views http://www.facebook.com/pages/Self-harm-awareness/180112625362382 http://www.myspace.com/recoveringcutter PLEASE, help spread word of self-harm awareness by wearing o...
self-harm and counseling recoveredcutter 459 views http://www.facebook.com/pages/Self-harm-awareness/180112625362382 http://www.myspace.com/recoveringcutter i thought about making this since some people have a fear of...
how to over come self-harm recoveredcutter 519 views http://www.facebook.com/pages/Self-harm-awareness/180112625362382 http://www.myspace.com/recoveringcutter i hope this helps some people out.
self-harm awareness tattoo recoveredcutter 621 views http://www.facebook.com/pages/Self-harm-awareness/180112625362382 http://www.myspace.com/recoveringcutter this is just a video of my tattoo i got for self-harm awareness

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this channe is to help everyone who is suffering with self-harm or suicide. feel free to send me a message if you ever need someone to talk to

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This is my story about self-harm and how i am trying to over come it
Before i was born, I almost died. I breathed to soon when I was still inside my mom and got this liquid substances in my mouth and i had to be put in an equabter for a week or so.

Growing up, I always pictured what my life would be life. Would I be on the football team? Will I be in the ppopular crowed? Will I be the one always in a cherrful mood?
Well none to all of those. When i started school, of course I was happy and willing to make friends that would last a life time. Once I got to about the 3rd grade, my life started to change. I was getting teased by my class mates and such. Ever since my 4th grade I became a loner.

I stayed away from my class and I didn't want to be judge. But it seemed like no matter what I was always being judge no matter what i did.

I think my whole depression started when my sister truned 17 or 18. When she turned 18 she played the "I'm 18 I can do whatever the fuck i want"

Of course my mom and dad were pissed that she was acting this way. She would constinly start fights wiht my parents to the point were I would just break down.

When I was 13 I became depressed. I thought no one cared about me, I was being teased for my learning disibility, i was tormenetd in school, my family was fighting non-stop, and other crap. I started to cut when it was summer and when I was out of school. I kept it up for 3 years and I didn't tell anyone, only my friends online...

When ever my parents and sister fought to point were i couldn't stand it, I would go into the bathroom, lock the door, and cried while I cut myself. When I didn't see blood come out I will cut untill I would see blood come out. Which was about 10-20 cuts later.

When I hit high school it became worse. Till I meet a friend who I didn't know that she would become my best friend to this day. I told what I was going throug and that I was cutting myself. She was shocked but she didn't tell anyone. The reason why was because she thought it wasn't that bad and i could handle it on my own. Which I really couldn't. It was around December then I was thinking this is getting worse. Untill I made a call that made have saved my life

I am now cutting on my leg. I called a teen hot-line and I told them what I was doing and going though. I told them I was afraid to tell my mom. I told them I sometimes write a letter to her. They said ok write a letter then call us back. They said if u don't call us back, we will call you. at this point I said ok there's no turning back.

I didn't write the letter. I told my mom face to face. Which was the hardest thing in my life. I told her why I dong it and how long. She asked to see the scars and I showed her. She wasn't upset just disappointed. She was glad I told her. But she had to tell my dad. they both went easy on me to. I didn't go to therapy, conserloring, family doctor, or anything. I had to help myself get over this.

Right now I graduated from high school, I was in my high schools marching band, and I have the greatest friends I could ask for. But cutting for me was one of the things that helped me reless stress when I was on the edge.I didn't know i was hurting myself. I didn't even know there was a such thing called self-harm till i was getting deeper into cutting. It is one of the things I DO NOT EVER want to go through again. Like I said it got so bad that I started to cut my leg. I felt bad that I abused my body in that way. and I am 2 years amd 8 months self-harm free

Sadly, even though I didn't cut deep, I still have scars that may never fade away. Just because you don't cut deep dosen't mean you won't scar. I cut enough that I bleed and it took about a year for my scars to fully heal. When ever I look at the 3 or 4 scars I still have from cutting, it makes me think. Why did I start to cut? Don't make the choice that I made and start to cut. Once you cut it is hard to stop

Self-harm is possible to bet. don't be afraid to ask for help

Remember (even guys)
YOU ARE NOT ALONE

i thought i was the only guy that self-harmed that self-harmed, i was worng..

BUT, the thoughts of cutting has come back.. i've been having bad imagies, and dreams of cutting. i can't even get rid of the painful memories of my sister and parents fighting..

Yes i am 2 years and 8 months self-harm free... but i got this far on my own.. and i can no longer do this on my own

Sadly i had a relapse and i cut about 6 times

BUT, here's the good news, i have started counselinf on October 2nd and i have had 3 sessions so far and i feel like that counseling has saved my live.

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