It was not your fault. Life is crap. It will not get amazingly better.
However, it can bit by bit slowly improve. Be prepared for all opportunities when they come or they will pass by. There is a friend, partner, soulmate for everyone on this planet.
Had the complete honour of serving "soft" drinks to a well-spoken cool dude at the bar of the hotel I work in the UK. He told me he'd played a local gig that night, but never mentioned his name (too classy for that!).
As zippy said quite often, " RRRRRRRRRRRubbish!"