Darkness is falling all around
There is no place to hide
Blackness enfolds me
Closing in around me

I kick and scream
But I know it's no use
I did this myself
Now I can't escape

Crying, screaming, lost hopeless
Why didn't I read the warning signs?
I knew what I was doing
At least I thought I did

Not knowing what to do
Not knowing where to go
Nothing I can hold on to
How can I stop this?

I want to cry But I can't
Nothing in my world is clear
I'm so tired of pretending
Images grow wavey through my tears

I beat my fists into the walls
Slowly I give up the fight
I want to scream through the sobs
I need your grace tonight

Crying to the God I want to know
I'm giving You my load
I pass to You my scars
Your blood has overflowed

Blowing away like the leaves
Only the wind can catch my dreams
Losing the time given to me
When will I ever be free?
When will they understand?
Who will strech out their hand?

I am hurting
Not knife in my chest hurting
Not sick hurting
Not the bodily hurt that sometimes comes like wild sobs
But just sorrow hurting
Hurting that I have no control
Hurting that I want to let go, but I can't
Hurting that I want to tell them...impossible