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Healthy Coffee :) = http://onelovelif... - My mind is a hard drive and CPU that stores and processes my version of the world. How I define my self reflects the MATTER in my physical reality. What I say about "others" is like looking in a mirror and judging my reflection. When I look in my mirror everything I see looks beautiful and perfect, and this perception is reflected in my physical experience. What I see is what I get (WISIWIG), my life is a holographic reflection of my mind, and I am the perfect reflection of perfection.
Reality is my five sense physical experience limitation reflecting physical MATTER in my NOW, and my imagination is infinite, timeless, in-formation in darkness that does not reflect MATTER until I experience it in my NOW. Experience is matter, and knowledge is fantasy. To learn is to teach myself limitations. Anything I learn about my world and accept as truth is my limitation.
My life is a pyramid that stands up with energy, at the highest point I am there by my self with a reflection of other persons/things physically around me. The further down my pyramid I think about is the more opposite of my self at the top. Above my beating heart is my upper world, and below is my underworld, so my stomach intestine is the brain tissue of my underworld.
My physical experience is my truth, and everything else is just a story, without me, nothing can exist... so nothing does exist without me, and with me everything is. Having a plan is being afraid to succeed. The best way of being is to accept that the world is perfect the way it is now, and any changes that happen is a change in the right direction, for me.
Looking at my physical reality I can see that I am always physically in the center of my self (self = me and everything physically around me), so being a self centered mind is in aliment with my physical reality. I am all about nothing, because something always ends, and nothing lasts forever. The word "illusion" comes from the energy of fear, so I prefer to use the word "reflection". (divine/divided = I/ALL)
3rd EYE = A coin has head, tail, and a side to balance them. 3 is a magic number, it represents (1)positive, (2)negative, and (3)experience. Positive energy is the singularity of thought, and in physical reality this is reflected as the Sun. The two cycles of the Sun being day and night is a reflection of positive and negative thoughts. Negative energy represents separation, emotions, and the moon. The moon is a slower cycle than the Sun and closer to physical experience. The moon represents water, and the sun represents fire, whereas fire appears to physically vibrate faster than water. The moon is a reflection of negative energy in contrast to positive energy of the Sun. The interaction between the moon and Sun results in physical experience of life, also known as earth
Light IS the acceptance of truth and clarity, and darkness IS being addicted to lies and confusion. Positive is space and negative is time, space is freedom and time is money. If I am at the bottom looking up to see the top of my pyramid, I will see a reflection of my fears, the beautiful view is from the top down. I am the only one experiencing my life, the being who is aware of my thoughts, emotions, and five senses, these are my seven modes of life. ETERNAL = everything and nothing, all at the same time.
My natural human body is the most advanced physical form that I know. Any idea of a supernatural being like spirits, ghosts, vampires, angels, or aliens, is only an imaginary fantasy existing inside my mind, and NOT real in my natural physical reality. SEX is an intense physical experience, and while having sex everything I'm feeling is coming from inside my own mind and physical body. She = Snake + man
ON = O(source) + N(energy flowing)
OFF = O(source) + FF(energy flow broken)
IS = the balancing point between ON and OFF
Self awareness is not a group thing. Every tree has a root underground that never sees sunshine, and the tree needs that root to survive. The view from the top of a tall tree is wide and expansive, while the view standing under the tree is limited. The bird who sees the tree from all sides, knows, accepts, and enjoys it's perfection as a whole, that's the 3rd eye.
A = pyramid with capstone
B = wings flying like Bird, Bee, Brain, Bug, Bat, Balance, and Butterfly
C = third letter, 3rd Eye to see A and B
Earth, now = experienced reality
Mars, evolution = imaginary fantasy
Déjà vu = two different versions of my reality crossing the same path for more than 2 seconds.
ETERNAL is to stand over, if you understand, you are standing under me.
Top is to bottom as head is to tail as self aware is to social network.
Shadow = imprint of my self seeing me from my opposite side
A-mer-ic-A = A mirror eye see A = pyramid capstone reflection
To be non-judgemental is to be FREE
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when i was watching your video and reading your description i think I might have spd too.
my dad can't see my emotion just like teachers at school and friends of me. i prefer to do things alone. at school i'm work alone many times cause i prefer it. in mylife I only had 2 girlfriends (not really intimate).
i sometimes avoid friends. mostly when i'm gaming or watching tv. at home i don't talk much with my family.
there are more things i can tell but these are the most happening. i hope i hear something from you.! greets
what do you think?
its just my third language
bye
i suffer from some of those symptoms that peole with a avoidant/schizoid personality disorder have.
the "shroom therapy" is interesting me a lot. i experienced shrooms in my past and i thing that they clean the mind - 2-3 weeks after the qute all trips i felt happy balanced ......
how did you use it for that kind of selftherapy? disciplined? ... alwas wathing Terence McKenna and Alan Watts?.....
what advices can you give me to handle that "illness" ? cause you said it became a lot better now. tell me!
thanks for reading
answering would be really nice man
you can write me an e-mail too:
buttermilch.88@web.de
have a nice day ;)
Anyhow, I recently realized myself I'm in the Schizoid boat.
You were the first person I saw in a real life setting that has it too, and it was a pretty big reality check due to the similarities.
So...thanks, mate. Is all.