Don't worry at a point in my life i was like that also. you see, After God has found us, we then have to FIND Him..(The bible describes God as a God that hides Himself)...Even king David felt the way you do at one point. Ps 42:5-11...Look i want you to Know that God will NEVER forsa...
honestly its only uneducated people who think its a woman that produces children...chai