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"Am I totally lame for only finding this video now?! It was so adorable! ..."
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"Am I totally lame for only finding this video now?! It was so adorable! I love how you captured all their moments together! <3 Let's just pretend the last five minutes of season four never happened? :3 "
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leecrew82
Excuse me, YouTube? You didn't delete all my channel comments. That would just be cruel.
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leecrew82 uploaded a new video
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x;;and that you'd be reminded.
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x;;and that you'd be reminded.
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I still miss you so much. It's...I know I'm pathetic. I know. I'm sorry. It's stupid to still feel so hurt and lonely without you, after all this time. It's been nearly a year since I got that email from you. Nearly a year since that last time you actually talked to me. Heaven only knows how much I've talked to you. You had said to "tell you if it was too much". I've been telling you for a year that it's too much, but you've never heard me. Because I do it on GoodReads or in my journals. Because it is too much, you know? I'm just too much of a coward to do anything about it.
Sometimes, I feel like I'm okay. But I don't like talking about those times, because it just makes me look like more of an idiot when I'm not okay again. Which is more often than the former. I hide it from everyone, everything around me; if someone were to know how badly I was suffering? If I had to look into someone's eyes and know that they knew all the things I've felt this last year and how painful it has been, I don't think I'd be able to stand it. It's been so terrifying, all this secret keeping. And you know who's sitting next to me now in APUSH. And she talks to you across the room all the time. Every other second, I hear her whisper-yell your name. As if my own mind wasn't already screaming it inside me head, like an alarm. It's been tormenting. I wish my thoughts had an off button so I wouldn't have to deal with it anymore. Because it's killing me. Slowly, but surely, I'm dying day by day.
I remember the last time I really talked on the phone with you. I was practicing a song on the piano, singing it. I thought I had you on mute, because my stage fright is so bad. But I didn't, and you said, "I've missed the sound of your voice." It only seemed fitting to let you hear it again. To hear, from me, how much pain I'm in.
I sometimes wish I could blame you. That I could be angry at you, because then at least I wouldn't hate myself so much.
But I can't. I just can't.
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This is about the most lazy editing ever. I know it's terrible. I know it's sloppy. I know that several notes I sang were off ("for me", asekjruenk). But I mean, I was half-crying in that take, and since I was basically sobbing by the time I had finished, I couldn't afford to do another one.
"Your presence still lingers here & it won't leave me alone."
"I would have died; I would have loved you all my life."
"How can you stand there & act like you're so sorry, when you know no apology can fix me."
"Remember the times when we started believing everything would be alright?"
I'm just...fading away. I know it's pathetic and stupid to be this distraught, this self-destructive over a friend walking out. I get it. I know I'm an idiot for feeling this way. But nobody has made me feel this way before. I never... No; I don't think I'll go there right now. I'm not strong enough.
But I know, in my heart of hearts, that I will never find someone like her ever again. Nobody will ever be able to fill the void she's left inside me. And right now, I wish I didn't even have the memories. They don't make me happy; they make me miserable. Is that terrible? To want them gone, to just erase everything in the last five years, make it so it never happened. Oh, how I wish.
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Song→Someone Like You
Artist→Adele (cover by leecrew82)
Footage→Final Fantasy X; Kindom Hearts II; Final Fantasy X-2
Program→Sony Vegas 9.0 Platinum
Dedication→M.
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leecrew82
Dear YouTube, how did I lose twenty-one subscribers in the space of less than an hour? I don't suck that badly, do I? ;-;
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leecrew82 added a new video to Uploads
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x;;even if you cannot hear my voice.
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x;;even if you cannot hear my voice.
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This is for an MEP by Absolute Dreamscape! Even though I'd had the part for awhile, I got busy and forgot until I realized the due date was last night and I cranked it out in like, three days! It wasn't until that moment when I realized that there is all of seven seconds of footage Stella has in all the trailers for Versus, so good thing I set her up with somebody who had an entire game dedicated to them, right? (:
I'm just uploading this so you guys have something from me on Valentine's Day! I know I had that whole "empowering myself, see you later 2011, you totally sucked" video, but things have been a little downhill from what I wanted, so editing is still just a little rough from me. Right now it feels like everything I'm working on has nothing to do with Final Fantasy or Kingdom Hearts, basically because they have too many memories attached to them. I'd hate to let this whole experience ruin two of my main loves for me, so I hope seeing videos and editing with that footage doesn't stay painful for much longer...
I only chose Zack/Stella because this song reminds me of two characters from a book I'm working on. Which actually ended up evolving into two different characters from another book I'm working on. You can tell I like pairing my blonde girls with dark-haired guys, right? OTL. And then I realized I could probably solve my Stella clip dilemna if I just killed Zack. And so I did, lolololol.
Also, as a side note, does anybody else think the 2011 Stella redesign is SO MUCH PRETTIER than the old Stella? I just pause at like, 0:03, and stare. She's so gorgeous! 2011 Noctis, on the other hand, looks terrible, in my opinion. I hope that all gets settled by the time the game is released. OTL.
Anywhoosie. (: I hope to edit more Final Fantasy soon. I really miss being able to edit with characters like Yuna and Kairi and not feel like it's supposed to depict my life. OTL.
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Song→Run
Artist→Snow Patrol
Footage→Final Fantasy VII: Crisis Core; Final Fantasy Versus XIII
Program→Sony Vegas 9.0 Platinum
Dedication→N/A
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And you really shouldn't be so self-conscious! I secretly like to sing as well, so hearing your voice was a surprise! You have a very beautiful, rich voice with a lovely vibrato. :3 I'd love to hear more from you! I love music and singing more than anything, so listening to you was a treat. And I'm glad I made your night! :]
But free verse seems easy enough. Well, I like haikus for their simplicity? x);; Yeah ... Well you can always look forward to his participation in future works. xD
Which is why non-rhyming poems are always an option~ ( Not that they are any easier to execute. ) Just needs a good rhythm. Since they both have "rhy". xD
Oh, they were both terrible. How unfortunate. D| Well, Magic Mike is about, from what I gathered, male strippers.
Me either, it's like "akhsbdahsgkaidhf rhymes". Oh, they're full of purple pose, so much purple.
The ones made in Flash and obviously look very flash like? > A>; Haha, at least you liked the movie adaptation? Oh that reminds me, I hear that Pettyfer is in that new Magic Mike movie. Aha. = w= ~;;
Ooo, how lovely. I'm quite envious of those people, they make such great treats. <3 But, I'm not in high school anymore, aha~
Feeling better I suppose, since I was lucky enough to come up with it on the fly and a minute to make it rhyme. Rhymes are hard. D; ( How do you do it Shantotto?! )They always find a way to be funny. But nowadays, I think that usually most are blunt about something. xD
Fake high- I don't even. True, but published doesn't exactly equate well liked or popular. Canadian cartoons, I'm looking at you. ... Unless, it's so bad people are attracted to it.
Ooo, a cupcake. That's sweet of the person. Obligatory or not. :'D
Yey~ <3 I wish I could make a more witty and funny poem, since there were a lot of humorous ones on tumblr.
( /googles book ) What the heckkk? xD The title's so misleading, in a way
Maybe we should but there's no plot to keep it together. xD
Well, it is quite the PM so take as long as you need to send back a thoughtful response. xD
Happy belated Valentine's to you.
I hope you had a good Valentine's Day as well.
Cheap cheezy poem for the occasion :
Noel wears blue, Serah wears pink
Be my Valentine, what you think? ;x