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THEN: AUTHOR'S POV
Oh god. "I... After I helped Demi onto her bus I asked her if she wanted me to stay to have someone to talk to but instead s...
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THEN: AUTHOR'S POV
Oh god. "I... After I helped Demi onto her bus I asked her if she wanted me to stay to have someone to talk to but instead she wanted to drink... Then she came onto me and I... we... had sex." Nick blurted the last part, and even saying it out loud sounded so strange, Nick and Demi? That wasn't right. Joe looked down at the ground, his hands turning into clenched fists at his sides, as he slightly started to shake, his face changing into a burning red color.
"You have about five seconds to get the fuck away from me before I tear your head off." Joe spoke through clamped teeth not bothering to look at his brother because he knew what would happen if he did. Nick retreated from Joe silently, his head hung, feeling the most worthless he's ever felt in his life. Joe just stood there, a shaking, angry ball until finally heated tears streamed down his face. Joe fell to his knees. Why did he have to be such a coward, why was he so immature all the time, why couldn't he just grow up? If he was a real man he would never have broken up with Demi in the first place. If he was a decent person he would have told someone, or pushed Demi into telling someone about her issues. He would have gotten her help long ago, long before it boiled over and exploded.
Now look how screwed up everything was. He has never been so unhappy before, he lost Demi, he lost Nick, his closest friends, and he had nothing anymore. His career didn't matter, his life, his family, it all meant nothing without Demi there to share it with him. Joe collected himself enough to stand up and go make a phone call. "Dianna?" Joe asked. "No it's Dallas, and I would not call back here unless you wouldn't mind peeing sitting down for the rest of your life." Dallas was pissed. "No wait please Dallas, please listen to me for two minutes please!" Joe begged. "Trust me I heard it all from Demi. I never want to hear from you again Joe, do you understand? No go get ready for your stupid show that's worthless now that Demi isn't there." The line went dead. Frustrated Joe threw his phone across his bus, not caring when he heard the smashing and breaking sound the screen of the phone made when it hit the wall.
NOW: AUTHOR'S POV
Dr. Kay and Demi sat silently on the bench after Demi finished her story. Demi was just hiccupping now after retelling one of the worst events in her life. Saying it out loud and recalling all the details almost made it seem like it was happening again. The emotions Demi felt then were the same she was feeling now, just as intense and just as hurtful. The Dr. rubbed Demi's knee slightly and waited a few more minutes before speaking. "How do you feel now?'' Demi turned her red, tear stained face to her Dr. "Like shit." They laughed. "But a little better." Demi rolled her eyes, knowing her stupid Dr. ended up being right again. Dr. Kay nodded once, satisfied that Demi seemed to be making progress.
Compared to when Demi first checked in, she was doing much better. She wasn't trying to drown herself, or refuse to eat, talk, sleep, or function like a human. She's making progress which always lifts the Drs. spirits and makes her believe that all the time, tears, effort weren't worthless after all. "Do you think you can come to terms with your past? I mean now that most of it is all out in the open." The Dr. swept her arms out in front of her, as if Demi's issues were just floating in the air around them. The girl shrugged, "I guess, I can try at least... it's a lot to think about. I mean from my childhood with my shitty father, to Joe, and Nick, and all the issues in between." Demi's head tilted to the side as she actually pondered coming to terms with everything instead of running away. Instead of being the little girl that just let everything build inside until she couldn't hold it down anymore and it exploded out of her in terrible choices and bad habits.
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THEN: AUTHOR'S POV
There was a short pause before Nick started talking again. "I heard she checked into a woman's treatment center... Did you ...
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THEN: AUTHOR'S POV
There was a short pause before Nick started talking again. "I heard she checked into a woman's treatment center... Did you know she had an eating disorder and other shit going on?" Joe couldn't even meet his little brother's eyes; instead he ground his teeth together, and dug his fingers into his arms. Nick studied Joe's face. And the harder he looked the more Nick found how upset Joe was not the asshole that's been around for the last few days.
"Shit Joe, you knew didn't you?" Finally Joe snapped out of it. "Yeah Nick, I did. So what, sue me." "You should have told someone you asshole!" Nick spat. "It wasn't my issue to tell!" "She clearly needed some help Joe, god!" Joe shook his head, she needed him. Demi needed him and he did what? Fucked her and said good luck? Demi was his best friend, he loved her more than a best friend too, yet what he did to her was just... inexcusable. What was his problem? She said outright that she'd stop hurting herself for him and he turned that down? Seriously, what the fuck was his problem, he should have done anything to make her stop but no, he was the problem, he was the issue. Yes Demi had other problems but what he did to her... That didn't help anything.
The last couple days Joe couldn't stand being in his own skin, he tried to forget everything that happened and to get Demi's big, brown, broken eyes and her echoing voice out of his head in any way he could. And that happened to be screwing around with Ashley but that actually made it worse, it only made him feel dirtier and less human. Because honestly, what human would do something so stupid, so selfish to the person they love?
"Yeah well what did you do Nick? Did you ever try to talk to her or ask her what was wrong? You were always jealous that I dated her, just say it, you love her too." Now it was Nick who felt that pang of guilt tighten his chest. He didn't ask what was wrong, she didn't want to talk. Maybe he should have pushed her to talk when they started drinking... Oh god, he didn't ask her why she wanted to sleep with him all of a sudden either. Fuck... Nick ran hand through his short curly hair. That should have been his sign, that should have been the warning flag that something was totally off. She never would have sex with him, ever; especially when she wanted Joe still. And just in general, they were too good of friends to throw it all away on something like the other night, yet it happened and Nick missed it.
A shaky breath left Nicks lips before he said. "Fine Joe, I love her too." Joe shook his head and glared at Nick. "Well one of us should have fucking helped her!" "Don't put this on me! I found her in the parking lot sobbing in a ball on the black top and took her to her bus. Didn't you go to talk to her first, huh Joe?" Joes face automatically softened. Joe hurt Demi, he knew that but to this extent he had no idea. "What happened Joe?" Joe grabbed his hair and yanked up before letting go. He was so frustrated, angry, hurt, sad, upset, and pissed at himself; he couldn't deal with any of this right now. Not when they had a show in two hours.
"We talked and..." Joe paused. "I told her, I... that we... and." Joe was trying so hard to keep it together but it was difficult. "Just say it man." "I told her I couldn't be with her when she couldn't love herself... and I... we.." "What?" "She started begging and crying and I hate seeing her like that so I kissed her to make it all stop... and it kinda went further than I intended." Joe rubbed the back of his neck as he finally met eyes with Nick. And Nick's eyes were so conflicted, like the fight going on inside his head. "Joe I have to tell you something, and please don't hit me in the face because we have a show later, anywhere else is fair game." Oh god. "I... After I helped Demi onto her bus I asked her if she wanted me to stay to have someone to talk to but instead she wanted to drink... Then she came onto me and I... we... had sex." Nick blurted the last part, and even saying it out loud sounded so strange, Nick and Demi? That wasn't right. Joe looked down at the ground, his hands turning into clenched fists at his sides, as he slightly started to shake, his face changing into a burning red color.
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Then:AUTHOR'S POV
"We're leaving." Eddie said calmly compared to the look on his red face. "Can you walk?" Demi tried getting u...
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Then:AUTHOR'S POV
"We're leaving." Eddie said calmly compared to the look on his red face. "Can you walk?" Demi tried getting up but lost her balance, her step dad catching her right before she fell. "Good catch Pops!" She laughed hanging her head back. "Can you find her a shirt please?" He looked to Dianna for help as he scooped his drunk daughter up into his arms carrying her off the bus.
Once outside Eddie loaded Demi into the back of their SUV, Dianna in the back with her daughter, Eddie started to pull away...He only went several feet before "Eddie pull over! Pull over, pull over, hurry!" Demi screeched. She flung the door open, propelling out before vomiting all over the side of the road. Demi held her own hair back as she just kept purging, over and over again. Since she hadn't eaten only the liquor was coming back up. All of it. Demi's mom got out of the car and knelt beside her, rubbing Demi's back. Demi was sitting on her knees pitched forward waiting for whatever else was bound to come up. But nothing else made it up, instead fresh tears. Demi crumpled into a ball on the side of the road with her mom beside her. The vomiting, tears, and broken little ball beside her had Dianna beyond worried.
"Demi..." She didn't even know where to start. "Why doesn't he love me mom? Why?" Demi sobbed, her face was absolutely heartbreaking. With tears streaming down her face all Demi wanted to know was why. "Baby let's just go home." Dianna helped Demi up, leading her back to the car. Dianna locked eyes with Eddie and nodded. They had been talking about getting Demi help for a while now, and it was finally time. With that nod, it put all the plans in motion. As soon as they get home, Eddie would be calling the treatment center to let them know they had one more coming.
With the boys several days after Demi left.
AUTHOR'S POV
"Joe! Joe wait up!" Nick called after Joe who was storming in between buses in the parking lot at their latest venue. Ever since Demi mysteriously left the tour Joe has been acting like a total diva. Nick jogged a little to catch up with his older brother. "Hey, Joe." He said gently, taking a hold of Joe's shoulder to spin him around. "What Nick. What?" Joe asked with definite attitude. "What happened to you? No actually, what happened to Demi?" Joe crossed his arms tightly over his chest and looked down, his jaw clenching tightly.
"Nothing." Joe spun around quickly preparing to speed walk away from his brother but Nick jumped in front of his path. "Listen, I know you're upset that Demi left and I'm sure you're feeling guilty for some reason because you've been acting like a total douche lately. Seriously, if you love her fix it. Stop fucking Ashley every three seconds, dump her and go get Demi. And if not, then get over it, because whatever this middle place is that you're in is helping no one." There was a short pause before Nick started talking again. "I heard she checked into a woman's treatment center... Did you know she had an eating disorder and other shit going on?" Joe couldn't even meet his little brother's eyes; instead he ground his teeth together, and dug his fingers into his arms. Nick studied Joe's face. And the harder he looked the more Nick found how upset Joe was not the asshole that's been around for the last few days
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Once everyone was settled, the excitement and anticipation only seemed to build. "Now, to make this as quickly as possible, I personally just...
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Once everyone was settled, the excitement and anticipation only seemed to build. "Now, to make this as quickly as possible, I personally just want all the family and friends out there of these brave men and women to know that they are outstanding people. Each and every one of them is absolutely outstanding, you all should be very proud. At this time I'd honored to give these soldiers their last orders..." He grinned down at those perfect military lines of soldiers. "You all are officially dismissed!" He cheered. "Now go get em'!" That was it, the breaking point in the room. Everyone started rushing toward each other, like hand to hand combat wars back in the day, but instead of fighting, it was hugging and kissing and crying. "Dallas, where is he?!" Demi was beyond her patience right now, she's been waiting 9 months for him to come back. And finally, finally, she spotted him. "JOE!" She screamed letting go of Dallas' arm. Joe's head snapped in her direction, and once their eyes meant, she couldn't breathe. Demi went as quickly towards Joe as possible as he ran, straight towards her. "Oh my god, oh my god.. Joe!" She smiled, everything feeling just bubbling to the surface. By the time he reached her Demi was already crying.
"Baby, you're so beautiful." Joe smiled it stretching across his face, lighting his eyes, traveling from head to toe was just happiness. Joe caught Demi's face in his hands and kissed her, immediately feeling at home. She wrapped her arms around him as tightly as she could. He pulled back a moment later wanting to see his fiancé. They couldn't stop smiling or crying, they were just so happy. "I love you so much." Joe said softly, stroking her cheek. "I love you too Joe... I have to tell you something." Joe nodded, not seeming effected by her sudden serious tone. "I'm.." He kissed her forehead before letting his rest against hers. "Just tell me." She peeked up at him from under her eyelashes. "I'm having a baby." Demi whispered. Joe was silent. "Actually any day..or second now." She waited for his reaction but his face was blank.
Then all of a sudden, his eyes sparked and he started yelling. "We're having a baby!?" Demi only nodded, fresh tears trickling down her warm cheeks. "Holy shit, we're having a baby." Joe said softer as moisture built in his eyes. He leaned in to kiss Demi again before opening her thick winter jacket. The soldiers were released just in time for the holidays. Joe dropped to his knees as he put a gentle hand on her protruding belly. "I love you, I love you, I love you." Joe chanted and kissed Demi's belly. He looked up to Demi. "Did you tell our baby how much I loved him or her?" Demi nodded putting a hand on the back of Joe's head. He kissed her belly once more before standing back up and wrapping Demi in his arms. "We're having a baby." Joe said excitedly brushing some of Demi's hair away from her face.
"I love you so much. I can't believe you're back." Demi squeezed Joe tighter around the waist and pecked the side of his neck. "I told you I would and right in time for the holidays." He smiled kissing the top of her head. "What did you wish for this year?" Joe asked rubbing her back. "You, always you."
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Demi tried to take a calming breath but it was just shaky, tears forming in her eyes. She opened the letter, closing her eyes, sending out a pray t...
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Demi tried to take a calming breath but it was just shaky, tears forming in her eyes. She opened the letter, closing her eyes, sending out a pray to who knows where that this isn't what she thought it was. Demi slowly opened her eyes and began to read. The feeling of relief flooded through her entire body. "Oh my god!" Demi squealed, standing up so quickly her chair knocked over. "Oh my god!" Demi repeated rereading the letter to make sure it was real. "DALLAS!" Demi screamed. Her sister was there for emotional support in the other room waiting to hear the news. "What? What? Are you ok? Do you need to sit?" Demi just stared at her sister, tears falling down her cheeks. She was just so happy right now. She held the letter out to Dallas. "He's coming back to me...Two more months." Demi whispered. Dallas took the letter and scanned it quickly, a hand flying up to cover her mouth. "He's coming home." Dal agreed. They stared at each other for a moment, excitement building before they both started screaming and laughing. All the fear that kept Demi up at night about her fiancé not returning vanished. Joe was coming home, a month early.
"Good thing because who knows how long you could have tried to keep that in the oven!" Dallas joked hugging her little sister. "My baby's coming home.." Demi whispered.
The day had finally arrived for Demi to pick Joe up. Well it was actually more like a ceremony because the men and women would officially be off duty, or released from the military and that was definitely a cause for celebration. Dallas came along just in case there was a 911 with Demi. "Come on, come on, come on!" Demi said impatiently to her sister for walking to slowly. "YOU, need to take it easy. Seriously Demi, it could happen anytime." Demi sighed and only slowed her pace slightly. They finally made it into this huge warehouse type building on the military base. So many other families were flooding in, heads turning, scanning, looking, hoping just like Demi's.
"Dal?" Demi asked standing on her tiptoes, "Do you see him?" "Dems I don't see anyone." She was right, the soldiers hadn't come in yet. Finally a man dressed in uniform, a higher ranking officer assumingly, took his spot behind the podium. Demi's breath caught in her chest, as she grabbed Dallas' arm, squeezing tightly. Only minutes separated her from Joe. The man looked out of the crowd and smiled genuinely. "Ladies and gentlemen, family and loved ones, the moment you've been waiting for." His smiled only seemed to increase and Demi found it contagious, smiling back. "Bring em' in!" He called, and suddenly the soldiers were marching in, in perfect lines. "Dal where is he?!" Demi screeched, standing on her tiptoes again. "Demi you're five foot three , you couldn't see if everyone was on their knees." Demi shot her sister a glare, but didn't stop looking. She knew he was in here.
Once everyone was settled, the excitement and anticipation only seemed to build. "Now, to make this as quickly as possible, I personally just want all the family and friends out there of these brave men and women to know that they are outstanding people. Each and every one of them is absolutely outstanding, you all should be very proud. At this time I'd honored to give these soldiers their last orders..." He grinned down at those perfect military lines of soldiers. "You all are officially dismissed!" He cheered.
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