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myspace.com/ihateme4me

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exsertED

Latest Activity

Mar 24, 2008

Date Joined

Mar 24, 2008

About this user

I would describe myself as outgoing and fun. But I would also describe myself as fat and ugly. There have been many times in my life where i have enjoyed it. I mean come on you can't be unhappy your whole life. But I have been drowned with depression. For at least 10 years of my life. I've been through hell. And I have still managed to come out alive. Which is good. I love my life most days. But i don't love me. I want to love myself and be able to look in the mirror and be comfortable with the reflection that is staring back at me. But I just stand there and cry in disgust and filth that i have let myself become so ugly and fat. Those are daily thoughts.

I have suffered from and Eating Disorder for a good 9 years. I started my recovery in 05' and ended up relapsing March of 08'. I am proud for how long I kept away from the horrible thoughts of the ED. Of course I had my slip ups just like everyone does. But i managed to get back on the horse and keep riding!!

Now im back to the way i used to be.. But i know that i am only worse. I do want to be happy.. But i also want to be thin. I want to meet more people that walk miles in my shoes.
I am here if you ever need anything!!!!

Have any questions? Send me a message.. and i will make a video to answer them :)

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Homemaker

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