confusedRAY's channel

sitting on my bed
with the same 4 walls staring back at me
i lie back and think
what does this life hold for me?
with goals set out to be
archived
spoken words to be kept
things to be seen
and promisies that prove
i live a life of memories
haunted with the past
hurt by the present scared of the future
im surrounded by reminders
oh, why wont they just leave??
does life have to be a painful road
cant my mind be let free?
im trapped in this memory box
i wait until the day it will be unlocked
im suffocating in my own air
drowning in the sins of others
im living in a nightmare
somebody plz wake me up
i cannot see anothe reminder
this pain is suffocating
my head in spinning out of control
im slowly losing myself
each and everyday
sleepless nights
and pain that never goes away
i look deeper
and deeper inside of me
everything happenes for a reason
is that so?
i think back
if those memories werent the same
would be the person i am today?
in truth, yes i would be the same
no matter what happens in life
with those huanted memories
i am trapped in
this endless path
i wait til the dreams come true
the ones that dont remember you.

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