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I live and I lie
Clench my fists so I won't cry
I live, but it's been years since I died

And I tried to speak
And I tried to be honest
But nothing changes
I just feel idiotic
And more vulnerable than I ever wanted tobe

So I'll smile
And pretend I am happy
I'll smile
My soul cries, but I'll be laughing
I'll smile
And I know you'll believe me
Problem solved, I am good, I am fine
Smile

It's easy pretending
To be better, to be changing
I know just how to fake it

I am bright and alive now
I am healthy and free now
You can cancel the doctor's appointments

And I tried to be brave
But now I choose the easy way
Put on a good face
And say that now I love myself
Believe me, I'm not hurting
The way I was before


Let me lay it all out
Breathing doesn't hurt anymore
I don't want to leave anymore
There is so much to explore
You don't have to care anymore
I don't need help anymore
I'm alive and it's never felt better (less info)