As i laid there in my darkened room. I started to think about everything i would like to happen to me. Like 1000$ falling into my hands so i can buy my friends and family what they want for christmas. Or To achieve better grades in my classes. sometimes i even thought about the smaller things like getting a huge hug from danielle or ashly. Hell i even thought about me and robert killing parker sterns over and over again. But it sickens me knowing that half of that stuff will never happen to me like 1000$ falling into my hands i hardly could imagen a 20$ bill falling next to me. Or getting a hug from danielle at school i hardly exist around her at school i try and try but nothing ever happens. its hard to even imagene what it would be like if she actually liked me. i spent atleast three years trying to get her to even notice me as more than nathans friend. but yet still i feel something and she feels nothing. I guess it just makes me a bad person to keep trying. it makes me wonder if she knew that i would kill myself to spare her life. so i give Props to ashly for giving me hugs. and props for backup from robert prouse. Little does everyone know that me and robert were put on this earth to destroy all humanity and what has become of it. Props to .................... Jacob byers for keeping in touch with me these past years. Nathan mccready for being a form of an alien race and living with the fact he weighs 10 pounds robert prouse for always being their for me and standing up for me and turning me into what i am today and not giving up on me because im a retard and dealing with reading this run on sentance and for being a bamf and for decking tyler and for being there for me in my darkest hour!!!!! kyle brewer for not leaving us totally for a whole bunch of jocks ashly riffle for being a sweet heart and hugging me every once in a while. brennen for staying with me even though i dont know his last name buddy wise cuz he is just as anoying as me to teachers T.j. and jon for saying my name loadly whenever i walk by jen for actually talking to me hilary for saying hi sam for same thing as hilary noel pretty cool to i guess dont really know her but what the fuck ever. heidi for being coolest sis in the world savanna for being cool. danielle for dealing with me. i guess greyson for being heidis boyfriend and ya anyone else can just go kill them selfs thx for reading bye