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I'm at the age of turning to 21, I've been through a lot.. I've been in pain of heart ache's. Mostly my M.U was the most painful thing I've ever encountered my whole life. February 5 2010 was the day my heart died and not thorn into pieces.. it become ashes..
I could say that its been year since I'm single.. 3rd party wasn't the painful experience I've ever have, its REJECTION.. He made me love him but he just left me the reason of the word CONFUSED..
i'm asking myself why that sometimes i see some images of him in my head even i forgot the feeling for him.. honestly i never get mad at him.. i don't know why but i guess i just loved that person so much... GOOD MEMORIES we have, makes me smile but those MEMORIES become my WORST NIGHTMARE that always become an automatic video that playback in my mind and it made me CRY... Every places we've been is like a living hell whenever i do to that place.. again it made me TEAR UP.. The worst thing is that I've remembered clearly that HOW HE LAUGH, HOW HE SMILES, THE WAY HE TOUCH, HOW HE SPEAKS, HIS VOICE ..EVERYTHING..
I've made my heart learned to be numb because of trauma.
this is the 3rd time I've been hurt by some i care so much...
i could say that I'm scared to be hurt again.. i made my self to don't care to people anymore.. honestly say i become a BITTER PERSON.. i cant give my TRUST to ANYONE.
but for now
I could proudly also say that I'm doing ok. I've become wiser, stronger, thirsty for successful life, a survivor and I'm living my life happily.. i''m young to worry about love life, that's why im focusing for my future .. i will make this negativity into a positive way, i know im a happy person inside and out, my friends say i become more matured and beautiful but as being single i cant deny the fact that i feel INCOMPLETE.
to thing.. If ever you have the chance to accidentally read this.. all i have to say is that, first of all hindi ako ng papansin, you can ignore me all you want.. i dont mind i kaw yan eh... but i remember all you said as we started as friends kaya i dont bother you or text you but let me tell you something...
I'm good and i felt you dont believe that...
were still good and friends..
i know its awkward to see me in school but sorry if ever i make you feel unease whenever i accidentally see you.. if i just have an invincible cape like harry potter has.. lagi ako magtatago if ever your around.. i wont make you do the things you dont want too.. im here if you need my help which ang alam ko marami ka nmn matatakbuhan bgo ako.. Im here as a friend no strings attached.. I've never changed as a friend.. I'm still me the old good friend you found in me.. i know in your part you accepted that as a big deal right now,,but what changed me is that i close my heart for some reasons AND ITS NOt BECAUSE OF YOU.. ok in a minute or two but becoz i've learned some things like what should be first and last to be done... i prefer to look for myself.. i didnt give time for myself to love my own.. how could i love someone else if i cant love myself.. and there are so many things i want to learn about and i hope i could run to you and talk to catch up things.. as a friend nothing else.. i hope that day would come... that you could smile back at me with no awkward feeling or dhil napipilitan ka lang...but becoz your ok nah..
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Philippines
Interests:
Reading books, listening to music, WATCHING MOVIE, playing with pets, im learning again in playing an organ, im trying toplay a guitar khit wala pa ako guitara :)) for me MUSIC IS MY LIFE n_n
Movies:
action movies, comedy war, horror sometimes or super madalang lang ang love story, CSI ,NCIS, THE UNIT, BONES, BURN NOTICE, CARTOONS. AXN , ANIMAX, NATIONAL GEOGRAPHIC, DISCOVER, ANIMAL PLANET,DISNEY ETC.FINAL FANATSY,
Music:
anything ... like linkin park, rivermaya, eraserheads,parokya ni edgar, spongcola, hale madami eh
Books:
madami eh, sometimes love stroy or horror, and tom clancy's book.. the past few months i really got to read many pocket books hahah :))
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