Desperately trying to crawl away from my fate.

Sophmore class of narbonne high school
Favorite Quotations:
"Be still my tongue, for I know not what to say; My life is lived in darkness, and here I will remain."
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Hope is the thing with feathers That perches in the soul,
And sings the tune without the words, And never stops at all."

"Pain is inevitable. Suffering, optional." -Unknown

"Forgiveness won't change the past, it just extends the future"

"If you break something, you could either try to fix it, or leave it alone and sit there wondering if it would've worked."

"Somehow, all the words found a way to
hide what they mean, but no one ever wins."

"I start to feel like I can't maintain the facade any longer, that I may just start to show through. And I wish I knew what was wrong. Maybe something about how stupid my whole life is. I don't know. Why does the rest of the world put up with the hypocrisy, the need to put a happy face on sorrow, the need to keep on keeping on?... I don't know the answer, I know only that I can't. I don't want any more vicissitudes, I don't want any more of this try, try again stuff. I just want out. I've had it. I am so tired. I am twenty and I am already exhausted."

"Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it." ~ Mother Teresa

Sometimes i wonder why im always the third wheel. I mean its not like i really want to be the third wheel. Thats a pretty sad place to be at. But sometimes when i've been trying my best at trying to keep everyone happy even though its not my job to, it looks like im not even trying to listen. Sometimes i find it hard to look at someones face and listen, its hard but i still do it weather i want to or not.

Sometimes i feel like i hate every single person i know and that i can only depend on myself. Sometimes im scared to trust someone because I know for a fact that some people shouldn't know what i know. Sometimes i'm so happy and care free that i dont really care that your both fighting and i just walk away. But you know what? If you want to leave, then do so, nothing and no ones really holding you back. If you want to feel betrayed then do so theres no one to stop you.

Just one thing of notice though, some people hate it whan you compare your problems with thiers. Some people hate it when you think you did something wrong when it has nothing to do with you. Some people might even hate you.

I mean its not like i really want to hurt someones feeling right now, its not what im trying to do. What i am trying to do right now is just, Right.

Write.

Right.

Maybe all this drama is meaning less to me and yes i know "best friends" dont have to share "everything." But what if this was a time when we didnt care about boys, or stupid things like what she told her or even fighting over stupid stuff?

I mean who really needs this? Who really needs this to actually live? All i know is that im really tired of all these silly fights if it means anything to you facebook is the stupidest way to communicate with someone because guess what this isnt real.

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