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This one time I had some privacy and some protection from Schadenfreude. Thanks for ruining that. You may recall you weren't invited to. The comfort of hiding from my dysfunctional, imperialistic, immature, toxic, culture-less and impossibly helpless enemies -- the freedom I used to have in embracing who I am, having secrets, and loving what is dark and morbid and fucking honest -- The joy I used to have in this is now in a coma, and maybe it should be, but one thing's for sure: I used to believe in myself but that has thoroughly been destroyed, along with the belief that I deserve happiness, confidence, good self-esteem, and success. Congratulations predators! I am a slaughtered rabbit, decomposing and becoming the dirt tracked on the bottom of your child-labor shoes.

"In order to be happy we must not be too concerned with others." - Albert Camus
And yet I'm unhappy.

"There are many great teachers out there -- teachers who have dedicated their lives to protecting the people who need protecting the most. The teacher has the most difficult role in our society because nobody likes obtaining true knowledge. True knowledge encompasses all aspects of existence -- good and bad -- most others do not. Hearing true knowledge upsets people because it implies that we were wrong at one point in our lives, and another character flaw is our desire to apply absolute truths to unstable foundations in our life. When we do so, we build a structure that we hope will define us best when we're reaching the end of our life on Earth. So, everything we think we are -- everything we tell others we are -- everything we base our life-changing decision off of -- is all depending on a foundation that could crumble at any moment. And because we've been told our entire lives that there are certain guidelines and mores we must follow to be a decent human being, we deny everything that may pose a threat to our unstable foundation. This is why we despise true teachers. We lump these teachers into the same category as terrorist, and the method for spotting these teachers and terrorists are just as flimsy and ridiculous as the methods used to spot witches." - Ben Stewart

"When did mediocrity and banality become a good image for your children? I want my children listening to people who fucking rocked! I don't care if they died in puddles of their own vomit! I want someone who plays from his fucking heart!" - Bill Hicks

"I mean we're like caterpillars contemplating pupation. 'No longer will I chew on the cabbage leaves. No longer will I spend my time moving around on the underside of the foliage.' Life must be a preparation for the transition to another dimension." -- Terence McKenna

"Expectation is the root of all heartache." - William Shakespeare

"And I can assure you that in an economic system which is actually designed to take care of you and secure your well-being without you having to submit to a private dictatorship on a daily basis -- usually to a job that is either technically unnecessary or socially pointless while often struggling with debt that doesn't exist just to make ends meet, I guarantee you: people will volunteer their time left and right to maintain and improve a system that actually takes care of them. And coupled with this issue of incentive comes the common assumption that if there isn't some external pressure for one to work for a living people would just sit around, do nothing and turn into fat lazy blobs. This is nonsense. The labor system we have today is in fact the generator of laziness: not a resolver of it. If you think back to when you were a child -- full of life, interested in new things to understand, likely creating and exploring -- but as time went on the system pushed you into the focus of figuring out how to make money. And from early education to study at a university you are narrowed only to emerge as a creature which serves as a cog in a wheel in a model that sends all the fruits to the upper 1%. Scientific studies have now shown that people are, in fact, not motivated by monetary reward when it comes to ingenuity and creation. The creation itself is the reward. Money, in fact, appears only to serve as an incentive for repetitive, mundane actions -- a role we have just now shown can be replaced by machine. So when it comes to innovation -- the actual use of the human mind -- the monetary incentive has proven to be a hindrance -- interfering and detracting from creative thought." - Peter Joseph

"It's a good thing my family is dead because they'd probably be pretty freaked out by that." - Emilie Autumn

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