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I live in UK.
I have an amazing partner, who is the love of my life! We have been together for almost 7 years now.
We have been ttc for most part of the last 2 years. (2010 -2011) My cycles on average 28 days.
2011 was a rough year for us, having had two miscarriages.
My first pregnancy lasted 8 weeks and then I started to bleed. My numbers went down and I miscarried naturally.
My periods returned as normal and two months later I got a positive! We were both shocked, excited and nevous. It was such a strange mix of emotions to say the least. I was so scared that the same thing would happen to me again.
I got passed the 8 weeks and started to feel more positive. My symtoms were getting more and more. Sore breasts, feeling sick and so tired!
It was time for my 12 week scan!
A happy time... right? Not for me...
Possibly one of the worst days of my life. The lady who was doing my ultrasound was very quiet, looking at the screen. I couldnt see anything and was waiting for her to say everything was good. She turned to me and said she was so very sorry, that the baby was measuring at 10 weeks and there was no heartbeat. Then she left the room, me and my partner could not take it in.
Another lady returned and gave me some options. A) I could wait it out and miscarry naturally, possibly waiting weeks/ months for my body to register that I was no longer going to be pregnant. Or option B) a D&C.
We decided to go home and talk about it. It didnt seem real, all I could think of is it was my fault. The doctors told me it was nothing I had done and it was not my fault, but I couldnt help think it was.
We decided it would be torture for me to wait and it would take me too long to heel. So we opted for D&C that day. I just wanted it to be over and move on.
I was angry and upset that this was happening to me AGAIN. It makes me angry to think of girls who have one night stands, smackheads and people that dont even deserve to have babies.
It's not fair. Life is not fair sometimes.
I had my D&C on Monday 27th June. 2011. I was bleeding a little when I woke up but the doctor told me not to count as my period and to wait...
I waited 36 days and my period arrived.
1st Period: 2nd Aug 2011.
Waited.....36 days....
2nd Period: 6th Sep 2011.
Waited.....31 days....
3rd Period: 6th Oct 2011.
Waited.....36 days....
4th Period: 10th Nov 2011.
Waited.... 45 days....
5th Period: 24th Dec 2011.
Waited....50 days....
6th Period: 11th Feb 2012.
Currently cycle day 4.
We are not ttc at the moment as something is clearly up... as you can see by my cycles.
I have been having pains, like a constant dull ache with sharp shooting pains every so often.
I went to my doctor and she told me she was concerned about my periods because before the D&C I was regular. She said maybe I was having ovulation pains? She explained that a pregnancy can change the body.
She then looked at her notes and said I could possibly have Polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS). She wanted me to get checked....
On 9th Feb 2012, I went to hospital to have a pelvic Ultrasound Scan.
At the scan the lady said she could see a cyst in or on the right ovary. She said she would measure the dimentions and send the results to my Doctor.
Three days later (Saturday 11th Feb 2012 - and cycle day 1 of my 6th Period) I get two letters in the post, one from my doctor saying the results are in and to come to the surgery asap. The other letter from the hospital for another Pelvis Ultrasound in a couple of weeks time Friday 2nd March 2012.
I have to wait the whole weekend to find out my result from the doctor and to see why I need another scan.
I hate waiting, I just want an answer then we can take ttc from there...
Thank you for reading, I welcome any messages.
xoxo
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