TheMasterguardian  <3

the demons lover the dark embrace
followed by the requiem of hell trail of blood laced my path....to find one to love to find one to become loved bloodlust straining my veins burning thru my core i laughed at the pain as hear the screams losing myself slipping into shock hearin the gunshots my ears bleed still seeing the blood on my hands, she holds me as i break, tightly to her breast i feel no pain her warmth mending my old wounds almost asleep my bloodlust has ceased keeping my power in check she lives small and yet she wields power stronger then most some may wonder how they stay so pure as time passes iv often wondered wat she thought of me wat did she think of being a demons lover somehow i wonder if she really knew of wat i was....

humaity is dead
darkness fills the room my mind sinking the the chaos i lost my humanity i dont know how to feel i spent so long trying to understand human emotions i am able to read them i can tell wat ther feeling wat ther trying to say yet im so cold logic made with little answers killers blood runs thru my veins i cant die iv tryed to and yet it is hard for me to die survied poison survived sickness wat animal am i my humanity was dead long ago yet the monster still lives the demon crying out just waiting for the slaghter solder is wat i am solder is how i live and solder is how i die... age 16 look at wat this world has turned me into dont ask why they use guns wen u should only look to urselfs kids cry kids bleed and kids die.

one choice
somethng i never understand of suicidal bullying victoms is they had the choice of things yes they picked on u yes they hurt u yes the gave u the choice to fight or run but they never tok a gun out and forced u to choose fight or die no.. you had a choice to run you had a choice to fight you had a choice to get help u had a choice to get away u had a choice soo meny ppl i know would hav given anything to hav u had a choice that alot of dead ppl didnt u had soo meny choices u had more then anyone i knew and yet u thoroghly threw all that away with ur death...

hav i lost
i died once when i was young i was around 5 and my heart stoped i was presumed dead for no less then 5 minutes death couldnt tak me then he waited too long but every since then he always was around me just watching everything crash looking at life as a loner seeing frineds die but never being killed why dosnt he take me he stole my frineds he toke my love being surrounded by greed lost in bloodlust and rage feeling inhuman buring within the chaos inside me dont understand not knowing wats next hav i lost who is next to die will it finnaly be me or do i walk forever as the lost solder the chaos the demon walking in chaos breathing in hell leaving me souless coverd in darkness left to die just to find im already dead unable to die any longer.

this is how life is u see the good the bad the happyness and the sorrow this is life in its truest most powerful rawist forms this is the way life is we constantly try to hold on to life as it slowly passess thru owr hands we try to hold on to owr humanity as we slowly lose it i still wonder how much of my humanity hav i lost wat hav i become slowly braking my blood burns with rage as everything passess me by my soul is already lost and my body feels as if it is failing how far iv fallen so much that iv losttaking it all in just to see the wreatched hell my life has become i can no longer feel human so now wat am i soulless eyes that never cry a mind that feels no remores a body that is already dead how far iv fallen to lose it all and still not see wat iv gained it the worst punishment of all

when we lose
when we lose we dont know we lost but we feel it in our core we know its true we wait and try to attempt to comprehend wat we cant understand lossing ourselfs fether lost in the darkness we cannot hope to escape we live in denial of the truth we see it so clearly yet watching it soo blindly can fully ecxept our fail death cleans us away slowly as it all falls down things can be put together and yet things will never be the same thebeing of sanity is a fales misleading of hope as all other things begin to fade u find that u had already disapeard wathcin things slowly change knowing u cannever hope to chang it urself death is a long way down this hopeless path and still im not home yet when we lose just hoep we can stay with our friends who will hold us together in the end once we fall all others follow dont give up just yet as they may not hav much of a choice

last resort a peom inspierd by diary of jane
fueled by hate and rage lost in the chaos driven by bloodlust hoping to escape only to find my only option left is death
falling to hells gates left in chaos im forced to use my last resort, im breaking as i continue to fade im lost trying to find who i am the lost solder is dying all over again succumbing to my demon am i losing to nothing!? am i killing myself ... still lost and searching... what monster have i become..

truth behind love
every day i keep thinking how harsh love is something so pure and so true yet so full of hate and betrayal
seeking deep within even tho i feel lost, i cant help but wonder... iv ben devistated by love and i still stand but how have my friends dealt with it hav they held through? do they stand strong or do they fall as fast as i did, i worry as i hope even tho i fell in love and i was broken i still hope she wont have to feel such betrayal! am i still in love? even after being broken... i gess just wait and try to find the truth.

lost in blood
death of the lost solder eclipsed in blood he fiannly speaks in the chaos just hoping to hold together in the end i sleep hoping i will awake anew refreashed lost with nothing in the emtyness if i no longer wake then pray to god he lays my body to eternal rest,rest in peace hoping to escape as i see my brothers and sisters lost in blood i continue to hav pride in myself to save and sacrifice my life to protect thos i hold dear to defend this cause i belive so strongly being the solder left in shadows given me honor amongst chaos death cant hurt me as my comrads hav fallen i will stand cold as steel i am the armor for the weak stronger then most i am the dagger of the silent seeing the reqieum of hell as i am the jaggernaut of the solders cry